& the history books forgot about us and the bible didn’t mention us, not even once. It was as if our love was a song. I knew the lines and melody by heart. But like songs, it slowly faded away. It faded until I couldn’t grasp it no more. It was as if our love was a movie, but just like any other movie, it had to end. It had to have an ending. And much to our dismay, it had to end the unperfect way. And even though we didn’t end up being the perfect couple, I’m just glad we tried to become one. .. and never forget, I fought for you. I fought for you like a rebel fighting for his principles. I fought for you like an activist fighting for his rights. I fought for you like a dying person fighting for his life. And I’ll never regret that I did. I’ll never forget that one night in august where it all began. I’ll never forget that one night when you called and we fought over some lame story in our filipino class, you know why I’ll always remember that? Because somehow I felt your love for me that night. I’ll never forget the time that you respected my decision not to kiss. And I’ll never forget how our first kiss was very accidental, come to think of it, it still makes me smile every time I remember it. :) All those days we cuddled, we held hands.. I’ll never forget those. I’ll never forget how you’d brush my hair and tease me because it’s all tangled. I’ll never forget how you’d wipe my tears off every time I’m crying. I’ll never forget how you’d hug and kiss me every time the smile on my face turns topsy turvy. I’ll never forget how you’d make me feel beautiful every time you get mad when I put on some make up. I’ll always remember how you’d let me play with your hair and your hands. but most of all.. I’ll never forget your efforts to make me happy, even if you couldn’t keep doing it. I’ll never forget your devotion, your sincerity. I’ll never forget your effort to introduce me to your family, even if I refused to watch a movie with you and your parents. I’ll never forget that time when you held my hand, and kissed me in the forehead, just because you thought I was getting jealous of some girl. and.. I’ll never forget you. So yes, we didn’t end up being a couple, but at least we tried. We didn’t have that happy ever after, but at least at some point, we were happy. And although I really really loved you, I believe that falling out of love was for the better. And after 3 years of loving you, I didn’t give up. I just finally accepted the harsh truth that even from the start, we were never really meant to be. It’s funny how fate led me to you only to rip me apart from you. I guess it’s destiny’s way of teaching me that sometimes, we can’t get what’s worth having, not because we don’t deserve it, but because we deserve something much better, bigger, something that will make us happier. So this is me, Fatima Roqaya Alonto Daturamos.. finally letting go of you. :) and this time, it’s for real. <3 xxdatzz.tumblr.com
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