(I wrote this on our 1st anniversary. April 12,2011. Now, we’re still together. Stronger. And we’re falling in love deeper.)
I am not special, I know. I’m dumb and not classy. I’m clumsy and messy. I’m loud and irritating. I’m possessive and demanding. I’m not smart, pretty, nor sexy. I’m not rich nor the ‘nice’ girl type. And I don’t see any reason why you chose (or maybe you did not) to love me. That’s the best thing I loved about you. You saw something in me that no one else did, just when I needed it. And I wish all people would see me the way that you do.
You came into my life by surprise. You walked into me when I needed someone the most. You found me when I hid myself behind the broken pieces of my shattered hopes and dreams. God gave me you the moment I was about to breakdown and lose hope. You made me happy in ways I never thought possible. The little things you do mean a lot. Just you, staying beside me, is already a gift.
Despite of the people who looked down on us, underestimating our capability to love, look at us contented and fulfilled with just having each other. The people who judged us are the same people who adore us now. We may not have the strongest bond of relationship, but what we have is enough to wander us through the happiness of love.
I will never forget all the fights we had, and the apologies we made; the good times that made us laugh, and the bad times that made us cry. The love letters, the pictures, the songs, and everything, they made me smile when I remember. Our sweet nothings, the text messages, the awesome dates, and the forgotten monthsaries, they made me love you even more than before.
I love how you leave me losing breath when you hold my hand. I love how you give me chills with your warm embrace. I love how you make me forget who I am when you kiss me. I love you for many reasons; the unknown and the vulgar.
Out of all the people who misunderstand me, you are the only person who has the guts to stay beside me through it all and continue to love me despite of my personal faults. I cannot imagine living a life out of your world nor see myself with another. I want to be with you, always. I want to give you all the love that lives in my fragile heart. I want to see you smile whether it’s for me or not. I want to hear you giggle though the reason’s not me. I fell for you head-over-heels; a thing I once thought as impossible. Me? Falling in love deeply when I do not even know what love is? One thing I understand clearly is that, love is beyond human understanding: can never be defined, but can be identified.
I love you. And I will do anything and everything just to make you happy, just like what you do for me. I have so many dreams and aspirations that I’m trying to chase and make come true. I want to be a pharmacist and build a pharmacy under my name. I want to be a surgeon someday. I want to be a writer and author of some books. I want to be a journalist and have my own column in a prestigious newspaper. I want to belong to the highest class of society and be a cover of a classy magazine.
But most of all…
I want to be your wife: wake up next to you, cook for you, help you prepare for work, wait for you to come home, and kiss you goodnight; I want to love you every second of my life. I want to serve you and make you happy in any way that I can. I want to simply be by your side as long as I live. I want to spend every day in this world just being near you, and making you smile over again.
Remember when I told you about ‘forever’? I’m sincere in making it true. We’ll show them that forever is real. Love is real. Love is forever. We’ll be living proofs to those words.
I love you. Always and forever.
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! :D
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