This may seem like an average highschool romance but trust me it isn’t. It all started off freshman year; he was a year older than me and at first I didn’t think much of him. The school year passed and we started getting closer and closer. He would message me everyday afterschool and we would talk for hours on end. We started off as friends and soon enough, we became best friends. Nobody really knew about us since we were in different grades and all. Eventually, I fell for him. How could I resist? Four hour phone calls, the walks home, the walks to my classes.. it all seemed surreal. I didn’t know if he felt the same way I did and decided that it was better to not say anything than to risk losing our great friendship. At one point, I couldn’t handle it anymore. I came out, I told him I liked him. Unfortunately, he said he didn’t feel the same way… Bummed , I put my feelings aside and smiled like it was nothing and our friendship continued on. I dated other guys , he dated other girls , but those relationships didn’t seem to work out. February came around and we both ended up going to the same party. Things happened, and for the first time we kissed. It felt… somewhat magical, nothing ever felt so right. From that night on , we hit it off and in a couple weeks we became an official couple. Some of my close friends knew but I didn’t want the whole world knowing ; our relationship was somewhat secretive. That I can honestly say, was one of the biggest mistakes of my life. I guess there was where I went wrong. I. His ex-girlfriend came along and ended up asking for a second chance. She didn’t know we were dating so I guess I can’t really blame her. He left me for her and I cried for days. I missed him so much .. I lost my bestfriend and my boyfriend. Looking back two years ago when that happened, I’d always ask myself what would’ve happened if we stayed together. Would we have made it this far? A couple days ago I finally built up the courage to ask him why he chose her over me. His answer was that he felt that I didn’t want to be seen with him since we weren’t telling anyone about our relationship. We lost everything we had over a silly misunderstanding. We’re back to being bestfriends now but I can honestly say that I’ll always have a place for him in my heart. Whether I be with , or without him, he’s made a huge difference in my life and I wouldn’t change what we had for the world.
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