If I could.

If I could, I would do so many things differently. I wouldn’t take back anything, no. But If I could, 

-I wouldn’t have been so selfish. I would take every single meager moment where I thought I mattered more than you. I would let you eat the last piece of food, I would let you go anywhere, do anything you want. I would hold my tongue for every snide remark. I would let you sleep a little earlier, eat a little more, talk a little less. I wouldn’t have been so gosh darn selfish.

-I wouldn’t have been so mean. You don’t know what you have until it’s gone. If I could, I would treat you like the person you deserved to be treated. I wouldn’t pick fights with you because every single thing you said was annoying me. I wouldn’t be as narrow minded, thinking you should be the person I thought you should be in my mind.

-I would’ve stopped us from becoming what we’ve become. Doing things that ultimately hurt us and God. I knew in the back of mind but I was too much in denial, too happy being with you. If I knew, I wish I could’ve stopped it. We were perfectly happy before.

-I would’ve stopped me from becoming who I’ve become. I got consumed in what I wanted. I wanted to try things. I became materialistic and vain. And I’m sorry. I know you loved me for a whole different person, and in a way, I hate what I become. 

-I would’ve done all the cute things I wanted to do for you. There was so many things planned that we didn’t get to do. Apple picking, haunted houses for fall. There are certain days of the month that are more special than any others. I wanted to surprise you and make you happy. I know it may not seem like it, but i really did try

-I would make sure neither of us got hurt. I don’t want to take away the fights, since they helped us know more about each other, but I wish I was more quick to say sorry. I wish I could have swallowed my pride and admitted my wrong. I’m sorry for all the times I hurt you. Secretly, I wish you could think the same.

-I would’ve changed my mentality from I to us. 

-I would’ve let you borrow Umbo for a day. You could’ve seen all the funny things she does and you could actually take a nap with her

-I would still have you go with me to get my first tattoo; hold my hand. 

-I would’ve cheered on your favorite football team with you, knowing it would be my last game, last bet, i’d make with you.

-I would take you to all those restaurants we planned on going. If you’d let me, I would’ve payed for them too. Screw chivalry. 

-I would never take you for granted, ever, ever again.

-I would have you hold your arms around me like the way i like it and make fun of certain features. 

-I would take you back, regardless how much you’ve hurt me.

-I would’ve tried to be a better girlfriend friend 

-I would say sorry for everything I’ve done to hurt you.

But that’s not reality. Reality is we’re strangers now. And all of it is put away in your little noggin, labeled as a box of memories. I’m sorry that I’m simply someone that will sit in a corner and collect dust. But you did mean a lot. And i will never forget that.

Have a Nice 2 Year Day