Reality is, we’re complete opposites. I’m not going to tell you that this relationship is perfect because it’s not. We fight all the time, and there are times where I just want to give up. He’s not the type of guy I would go for. My music taste annoys him and vice versa. I’m plain, and he’s not. We have different opinion about EVERYTHING. I think he’s annoying and most of the time he would piss me off but funny thing is by the end of the day he’s the only one I want to talk to. Our relationship isn’t a COMPLETE MESS, maybe I might be exaggerating a little because I wouldn’t be with him if he wasn’t the most amazing guy I’ve met. If I can go on about how cute he can be, this post would be an essay long. I always had trouble trusting boys, because of all the heartbreaks I’ve went through and I have this huge brick wall up most of the time. Honestly, I still do but it’s slowly falling. I told him this relationship was not going to work out because we’ve been friends for so long. His response, “fcuk it, we can’t change it now.” He hasn’t given me a legitimate reason to leave him yet. I mean why would you leave a guy who drives to your apartment at 4am to give you liquid medicines because you can’t swallow pills? Let’s not forget it was an hour drive from his place to mine. He took care of me in the morning and the rest of the day. Or someone who is willing to stay up for you when you’re at work until 2am in the morning just to webcam with you for a few minutes. Currently, he’s in North Carolina because he’s a marine and I’m in California so there’s a three hour difference. He came back to California for two weeks last month and it was 2 weeks of the whole year. It was a hard year for me since he was in Afghanistan for 6 months. For six months, we went through e-mailing and phone calls. I had to send him packages to entertain him while he was in Afghanistan and it was pretty assuming in my opinion. I learned to sew his name on a pillow and it sucked because it took up my whole spring break. I really miss him. If we go can through this stupid mess, we are going to conquer the fckin’ world just watch us. My worst enemy, my best friend, my shoulder to cry on, my first kiss, and the one who puts up with all my shit. Babe, in my eyes, I believe this relationship is perfect. We’re going to go through everything together today and tomorrow. I promise.
I can’t wait to see you in December, Foxx<3