Dear Mister,
I’ve been too hurt so many times that I’ve learned to guard my heart and use my mind instead. But now, after meeting you, everything has changed. I’ve found myself starting to use my heart again. And it creeps the hell out of me. You came when I least have expected it and moreover have thought things could go as far as this. At first, I thought everything is just a game topped with sugar coating words, and originally thought I was just playing along. But now, after talking to you, everything has changed. I’ve found myself starting to use my heart again. And it creeps the hell out of me. I was out of the country for a few days, and all I could think about is you, and how much I’d wish you were there with me, hugging me as if you were my most precious jacket. I also knew how expensive it was for me to send you messages but I still opted anyway. It got me into thinking what is up with me though I shrugged it off. But now, after leaving you, everything has changed. I’ve found myself starting to use my heart again. And it creeps the hell out of me. We continued to talk, and talk, and talk and often caught myself smiling in front of my phone and laptop. Bit by bit, I knew you more, like how you can manage to sacrifice things for the love of ball or how you would try to do well on the things you do. Despite everything, I tried to make myself believe that there’s no way you’re the one. But now, after knowing you, everything has changed. I’ve found myself starting to use my heart again. And it creeps the hell out of me. A nightmare streaked me, everything went on its downward course. We just stopped talking. You gave me reasons I still try to believe. I’m trying not because I don’t trust you but because I thought that you’ll do anything just to make me feel your presence, just like what I’ve done when I was away. However I’d rather accept the fact that not all people are the same, not all people think and do things the way I do, than to hate you. But now, after not having you, everything has changed. I’ve found myself starting to use my heart again. And it creeps the hell out of me. With the days of hiatus, I realized how important you are and how I even like you more because I’ve proven that you’re a man I could trust wholly. You’re not like others who seem to be so hungry for love that they’d bite any girl that comes their way. By writing this, I just want you to know that I’m here waiting for the day we’ll meet again. That, I promise will happen soon. And now, I am sure that everything has changed. I’ve found myself finally using my heart again. And even if it creeps the hell out of me, I no longer fear. Yours truly, Missy by paddyspoint