This is the one and only love of my life, Carlo Lampera. He is now in Dubai, we’re turning three months this 13th of May. Since he is now in Dubai, this is the only way we can communicate + facebook and Y!M. I’ll admit it was a bit hard for me at first. Waking up not being able to see him, to be with him and to have him by my side. For his first week in Dubai, we didn’t have any communication, so it literally drove me crazy. I cried my eyes out. I long for him, I miss him badly. Good thing my bestfriend was there for me to comfort me and his mom, whom I can talk to anytime I want because I know she feels the same.
There is a great possibility that he’ll stay in Dubai for his college. We have talked about it before, but it’s only now that it’s sinking in to me. I really didn’t mind before. But as the months passed, it began to sink in. It hurts more than I expected.
This is my first time to be in a long distance relationship. I will admit that at first I was scared, and I had doubts. I was afraid there will come a time that we can’t communicate anymore, because he’s busy for his college, and me too. So at first I doubted, that we’d go through this all. I admit I am weak, vulnerable and I know I can’t handle this on my own. I had so many fears that our relationship can’t go on.
But then, he made it clear to me that he’ll always be there for me, whatever happens. We may be apart, but I know, we both have a space in each others’ hearts. :) We talked yesterday and cleared things out. He is the only one who can cheer me up when I’m so down, the only one who brightens up my gloomy days. He’s the only one who gives hope when I feel hopeless. He’s the sun of my life, the one who lights me up. He told me we’d be able to go through this, because whatever we are doing now is for our good future, for our future kids and family. He washed away the fears I had, he brought light to my dark world, he made me stronger, he reassured me that everything will be alright, as long as we believe in each other. And now we do. :)
Now I know, everything will turn out the way we want ‘em to be, because our love for each other is unconditional. What we’re doing is for our good, for our sake and for our future. whatever happens, he’s my better half and I know we’d end up together someday. I know so. :)
I love you so much, Carlo Lampera. :) We may be apart, you may be miles away from me, but you ain’t inches away from my heart, you’ll always be in it, no matter what. Thank you for giving me the strength, I’ll be brave and stronger for you, for me, for US. :) Eternally. :D
-Frances Marie G. Lampera