This should have been done for you already, not just 3 days ago, much longer than that. Goddamnit how i despise writing letters, especially because im going to regret starting it this way when I realize 1000 better ways to do it, after i fucking sent it. Not to mention the intimidation that comes along since you’re an excellent and beyond talented writer. I hate myself for not doing this sooner because it wouldve made both of us feel a lot better. Now, I know its redundant to say how hard it is to put in words, what you mean to me. Only because its obvious that words wont do it, but in this case, the effort displayed in me trying to write this, is greater than the actual words. But as a subtle reminder, I will have you know that nothing I say here can really express my everlasting love for you. I have honestly, never viewed another human being the way I view you. There is not one single creature who will have half as much as my respect as you do. I don’t just respect you for the typical reasons, because you’re strong or because you’re smart. I respect you because you wont give up on me. You wont give up on us. You haven’t given up on yourself or your life. I respect you because despite your daily struggles, You care enough to help other through theirs. Especially me. I honestly, have no fucking idea what I would have done without you this year. I curse myself everyday for ever saying you stressed me out at one point, because now I realize that I was the one pushing you away since I didn’t know how to deal with my problems. I cant imagine another person who would have wanted to stay by my side through this year. And I know our connection is real because even though you and I went through a lot of problems, we became closer and stronger as a couple afterward. I still don’t see what you see in me, or see the reason you held on, but I will never stop thanking you for it. I carry around your letter with me everywhere because when I feel the most alone, it brings the most comfort. I get goosebumps when I visualize me and you laying in bed together, just talking, because the amount of happiness it brings is so great, its unreal. I can proudly say at this point in my life, I am completely in love with you and I want to spend every second of my life with you. The feelings that overcome my body when you text me, or call, or even when I hear your voice, or so overwhelming and new. Everyfuckingsingletime I think of you and your beautiful face, I smile, and I dont think I could control that even if I wanted to. Yes, there are plenty of things that need to be fixed between us, but there is no doubt in my mind that we are going to make it. I cant wait to wake up next to you 10, 20, 30, years from now, still happy, but stronger than happy, and not regretting one single day. I wish another man would hit you, just so I would have the right to kill him with my bare hands, then stand over his lifeless body and scream “Nobody will fucking hurt her, understand?” and every soul in a 10 mile radius will quiver and scurry from the intensity of my passion. My love for you is not normal, but then again what defines normal, and whatever it is, it is not I. I want your name carved on my chest by scarification, only because tattoos can be removed. I want to take you to a place where you thought was impossible. A place where me and you can live our dreams together in complete peace and happiness. A place where comfort is assured and dark energy is forbidden. A place where we can get high with no worries, and where we can fuck for hours until you lose your voice from screaming my name. A place where you don’t need paper, you just grab a sharpie and spill all over the walls next to my art. A place that upon entering, I can look into your eyes and say “welcome home baby” and feel the happiness overcome your body. I promise you my love, if you promise me your forever. Destiny, I love you with all my heart. All I ask is that you talk to me more, and verbalize your thoughts to my face, into my eyes. All I want is for you to tell me “everything is gonna be okay” like the way I used to make you feel. I apologize for my wrong doings, and promise there will be no more and if had to sacrifice everything I own and everything I am to do so, I would. Destiny, I love you, I want to spend my life with you, and I want us to wake up each and every day knowing that we are madly in love, crazy about each other, and that we make each other completely happy. You are my everything. You are more than perfect, and I promise to make you feel that way even after I die. And I promise you, just like our love, we will live forever. I would burn the moon and douse the sun with dry ice just to hold you in my arms right now, and never ever let go.
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