I love you so much, you know this right? It’s almost our second month officially together. I don’t remember when I exactly fell for you but I know it was way before you did. All that matters now though is you’re mine, all mine. I’m not sharing, I don’t want to share, ever. And I trust your words when you assured me that I would never have to, well with a few exceptions in the future. You’ve changed since we started going out, not for the worse but you’re finally opening up. Don’t worry love, I know you’re still afraid to completely open up, and it’s hard to trust me completely. After what you’ve been through, I’ll be here for you. I am here for you. “Distance is just a test to see how far our love can travel.” I’m not giving up on you, as long as you’re fighting for what we have I will never give up, I’ll fight with you.
You’re the one who makes me smile despite my darkest moods. When I hear your voice I can’t help but be soothed by it. I know it won’t get easier only harder but I believe that we can make it together. We’ll fight and make up, and our relationship will grow stronger with each arguments and misunderstandings, we’ll patch things up and laugh about it in the future. Distance would only be a obstacle not a hindrance. Though I would be lying if I said that it doesn’t bother me. I miss you so much, I miss your touch, I miss your smile, I miss your kiss, I miss your hugs, I miss cuddling, I miss everything about you, everything when we are together. But I’m still happy and satisfied at least I get to talk and text with you, I get to chat and hear your voice. You’re voice is a necessity to me now, I need to hear it, I want to hear it, I love it. It soothes and eases my mood like no other.
It’s impossible, I don’t expect you to love the way I want to be love because you will love me the way you know how to and I will love you the way I do. I might whine and complain about it sometime, but deep down I know you love me. I can feel it. I may get whiney, cheesy, sappy, annoying, bitchy but please be patient with me like you always are, don’t get tired of me okay? I’m not perfect and never will be but I’ll try my best for you. Just because I love you.
I’ll try to open up and show you what I’m hiding but old habits die hard. It’s hard not to pretend. I know how much you hate liars but trust me it’s hard for me to say what’s on my mind I really don’t mean to when I lie to you. It’s just hard to admit that I’m not fine and sometimes it’s difficult to explain myself. I’m afraid that it’ll start something or might turn you off despite knowing that you’re not that shallow. And you love me for who I am. I’ll keep trying; I’ll open up and you’ll learn to know me like my best friends do.
Just so you know, I love you just the way you are, you have nothing to be insecure about you’re flaws? I don’t see them as flaws they make you who you are. I know you’re selfish, but so am I. You can be a jerk sometimes and an asshole but in all honesty, you haven’t been one to me since we started going out, well maybe a bit but… you didn’t mean it anyway and I just thought of you as one I was being childish. You have your dreams and I have mine, I won’t hold you back as you don’t hold me back but I will support you.
I want to have more monthsaries and have lots and lots of anniversaries with you. Maybe this time I’ll can believe, I want to, in you. Prove me wrong, prove that there’s such thing as long lasting love and it doesn’t fade. Please? Prove it to me, I want and long for you to. And I’ll prove myself and my love to you. I know I’ve grown more selfish and greedy with you know, it’s just because I do not want to lose you and I want you to be just mind. There are times that I can be demanding and an attention seeker it’s just because I want to be in your mind as much as you are in mine. It’s not fair that you fill my mind every second of the day and I don’t so there.
So to you, the guy that haunts my dreams and the reason that reality seems so much better now. Just to remind you.. I love you so much and thank you for making me happy.