this is me and the man i love. I never really liked him at first and always felt we were rushing things. I didnt even wanna be his girlfriend, but i just went along with it. Before i knew it, i found myself head over heals for this boy. There was nothing he could do that would ever be anything less than perfect. I loved every wrong thing about him. I was finally happy with being his girlfriend. He was my motivation to keep going, to wake up in the morning, to work hard, to be kinder to people. He made me a better person. Then something tragic happened, and he lost one of his best friends. He changed, he wasnt the same man, but i never blamed him, i just tried to help. But every time i tried to help he would shut me down. then eventually he left me. I was so devistated, but we remained friends. I couldnt handle myself, let alone HIS problems.. i just didnt know anymore. things stayed like this for a while. then we would get back together break up, get back together. then finally he told me to see other people, cause he wants to experience life.. that were too young for this. but you see.. i didnt care.. i just wanted to experience being young with him. but it was what he wanted, so i started to talk to other guys and he talked to other girls.. but now it feels like everytime we talk we fight. and im slowly startinng to hate everything about this man. Im beginning to hate seeing his face and all his annoyinng mannerisms. But the memories are still there, i look back and cant help but cry. i just want things to be how they used to be. i miss the man he used to be.. i loved him so much.
by manderpandur