I met her last August. It was summer and I was just trying to kill time till I could fall asleep. Ironically, she was the reason why I stayed up. Before she came into my life. I thought LDR’s couldn’t work, I thought they were dumb, and the relationship I had before her was the reason why.
We talked into the night and into the morning, up until we were too tired to talk anymore. I loved talking to her. She was something entirely new, her perspectives, her personality, just the way she talked to me. And realizing all of this upset me, because she lives 2,450 miles away. Though she changed my mind about long distance relationships. I had no intention of falling for her, but I did, and I wanted to make it work. September 16, 2009 Eastern Time, was our official day.
Eventually the distance got to us. Stress at home, stress with school, just problems that conflicted with each other. We were falling apart and fast, eventually it was over before I knew it. But I cared too much for her, I wasn’t going to let go that easy and eventually we got back together. Our relationship is off and on, and I know it’s not healthy of us, but I can’t help it.
We lasted 8 months. We were both tired of it. The fights were too much.
I even tried to give her up completely and tried to stop talking to her. I wanted to try it for a month. I missed her terribly, I couldn’t even go longer than a week.
She had given up on me. But I couldn’t do that. I was willing to fix the faults in our relationship, to change and to show her that it’s a different story now. And so far, things are looking great. We may have our problems, but what relationship doesn’t?
I wish I could hug her, I wish I could hold her, and I wish I could kiss her and see her smile. There’s millions of girls out there, but I want the one 2,450 miles away from me named Rykiel. I will do everything and anything for her.
Eventually, we were able to work something out and now I plan on seeing her in January. If this doesn’t work out for us, I’ll just be happy with knowing that I’ve met someone like her and that she’s in my life.
I can’t wait. I will finally be able to hold her in my arms and whipser to her ear that I love her.
With long distance relationships, you just have to be patient and things will work out. Things always work out for the better as long as you’re determined enough. Don’t give up, especially on something that matters so much to you. Life has a way of working itself out, you just gotta stick around till it does. I’m glad I did.
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