Tumblr brought me to the girl i’ve fallen madly in love with. She used to be with my ex-best friend but that didn’t work out. But one thing i do thank Lisette for is showing her that picture of me even though i was completely oblivious to all of this. Jen then developed a crush on me.
June 16th 2010, a day i’ll never forget. Spain was playing Switzerland in the World Cup. I rooted for Spain from beginning to end. Switzerland scores and to take my mind off of the game, i sign on to tumblr. I see that i have a new follower. I make a post titled “thanks for the follow jennywasafriendofminee”. Shes online and reblogs my post asking if I was the Martina she had heard of before. We talk all day long, reblogging then on aim. We find that we are the same person. We like all the same things and have all the same views. I’ve never in my life met a person so much like me in such a different way. Hours after we started talking I felt I had known her for my entire life, that we had already met in a past life. The next day I give her my number and we spoken non-stop until I left for Guatemala.
I still hadn’t met her yet but I knew I wanted to make her mine. She was just to awesome to let go. During my entire stay in Guatemala we spoke every day and night. It was while i was sitting down one day in Guatemala when it hit me, I loved her. I couldn’t do anything but think about her, every single thing about her fascinated me, and I was more than willing to do anything to be with her. She already knew I liked her and she liked me back but some how some way, this had escalated to something much more than just like and I had to inform her of my new feelings. I was scared shitless because if she didn’t feel the same then this would kind of ruin things and make everything awkward. But, when I told her I loved her, she said “i love you too”. She felt the same towards me.
I’m a strong believer in that when you meet your soulmate, regardless of how long you know that person, regardless of whether you’ve met physically or not, regardless of what they look like, you automatically fall in love. When you meet your other half, there’s no double checking to see if this person is the real deal, there’s this little certainty that sits in your heart that this person is the person that compliments who you are, that this person is the one who completes you and you’d be an idiot if you didn’t do all in your power to spend the rest of your life with them. It doesn’t matter is this person is of a different religion, the same gender, a different country or culture, when you come across this person, your heart ties itself to theirs and you both can’t live without the other, you no long have control, your heart calls all the shots.
All this I felt with Jen. With none of my past relationships have I ever felt anything close to this.
We became crazy for the other.
On July 30th, 2010 I met her for the first time. She was everything I expected and so much more. Holding her in my arms was a feeling I will never forget, I felt complete. I never knew how incomplete I was before her because I had never known what it felt to be truely complete. That day spent with her was perfect. It was like a confirmation of everything we felt, everything we dreamt and spoke about. It was like receiving the best present in the world, the gift of true love.
I’m one of the lucky ones, I found it at 16. People spend their entire lives searching for love but I guess that’s not the way to go. You can’t really find love because you’d look for it in all the wrong places. Love sort of just finds you. It’ll find you when you’re ready. We were both ready and able and love (and tumblr) put us together.
She’s the compliment to everything I do. She has this amazing voice waiting to be unleashed and I know if she sang for me one day I’d be able to out the ideal music to the song she sings. She’s so photogenic and I was given the skill and passion to capture her most beautiful moments. My love for soccer was the topic that got us started. My poetry has found her, the neverending fountain of inspiration to never run out of things to write. All that I am, all that I’ve become, all I can do is for her. All these hobbies and interests are all to better love her. What I thought I was doing for sheer curiosity or attraction, was actually helping me aquire the skills to enamor you. Without you, nothing would have meaning.
We have our entire lives ahead of us to spend together. I wanna wake up every morning next to her. It wasn’t until she came along that I began to live. She’s more than I could ever ask for and forever sounds like just enough time for us to be together. She’s the one I want. I want to grow old next to her, adopt kids, and just live.
Strangers can fall in love.
We sure did.
by carazamba