Dear Joseph,
I was just thinking about our first kiss today. It was the most beautiful thing in the world. I swear I have it recorded in my mind as if is was on film. Oh, how badly did I want to plant one on you the moment you stepped off the plane and I ran to your arms. But I held back because I wanted you to do it first. You looked especially handsome in your Naval Academy uniform, and the smile that lit up your face when you saw me melted my heart. I remember nervously walking through the terminal with you, our shaky palms clasped so tight. It had been so long since I’d seen your face in person, and video chat just doesn’t do you justice. Those months without you were so long, and from the time we started dating—and to be honest long before— up until your arrival at the gate I must have thought about that kiss a million times. We rode the airport train, grasping each other, holding each other close and not once letting go. Your face was against mine, I remember the feeling of you softly exhaling on my cheek. You wrapped your arms tight around me, I buried my face in your chest and your lips were pressed gently against my forehead until the train stopped. It was just moments away, and my mind was racing.
We made it to concourse E, because we’d talked a long time about how our first official “date” would be at the airport’s Panda Express. We found a table, and I sat on the same side of the table as you, because I knew I could sit face to face and look at you on video chat any day, but our days of physical intimacy like this were few and far between. We sat in blaring silence, those lips of yours were so close to mine. I looked up at you, and then there it was. That sweet, beautiful, incredible moment we had dreamed of for so long. My heart was overflowing with euphoria, and at the same time I was entirely calm and at peace. This was the moment where all was right in the world. This was the moment that made me know, deep in my soul, that every word you spoke to me about our future you said with complete sincerity. I had never felt anything like this. I never knew a kiss could have that much power.
That’s what I thought about tonight, my dear.
Love,
Jess