I sometimes have to catch myself. It’s like, you’re sleeping, and your body jolts forward and you’re back to reality. Ybour body goes into over load, thinking things like ‘What the hell are you doing?’ and ‘Are you out of your mind?’. I’m not going to say a long distance relationship is easy, because that would be a lie, and a very bad one at that. It’s not easy. It takes time and patience. It takes a hell of a lot of heart. However, I believe if you can withstand the time apart, the time when you get to hold each others hand for the first time will be well worth the wait. I get asked a few questions, people wondering how I could even stand doing this. I can stand it, because yes, I love him. He’s like the Earth, the Sun and the Moon & I know when I finally get to touch his adorable hands and witness his amazing smile before me, it’s going to be the happiest moment of my life. I’m prepared to wait for such a magnificent person, I’d give him anything he asked. Another one is, how can you love someone you’ve never met? I find it easy. After all, love is based on feelings towards that persons personality right? You don’t fall in love with someone because of the way they look. Sure, attraction is there, but it should be put lastly because with attraction comes lust, and that leads to nights many people don’t want to remember. I fell in love with this guys personality, then I fell in love with his voice. And then, I fell in love with the way he looked, and the way he smiled. I don’t understand why people doing long distance relationships get slashed for it. I know the whole internet awareness thing, but surely you have common sense.
My relationship with this boy is perfect. Yes, he lives over 10, 000 miles away from me, and sometimes I find myself crying, just wishing for him to be there and hug me until I’m better. Yes, we fight and argue, and we go through times neither of us want to remember. We’ve made each other cry more than I’d like to count, but he. He’s made me the happiest I’ve ever been, and my friends, the ones who understand, can quote me on that too. So others can continue not understanding, and they can continue to not believe that this is the right choice for me, and I’m wasting my time.
Because I know he is what I want. I love him to the moon and back. Always.
14/12/09 <3
by -cumbucket