Going Nowhere

It all started with me and him playing jokes with one another. I didn’t know it will get deep..as DEEP as this. It seems like a scene on a movie, wherein this boy and that girl were plain friends, having fun and one night with just a look in the eye they fell in love. Yeah, it is so good to feel it. It all seems like a magical night. Everything’s seem right. 

But again, this only happen in movies or in our dreams. After the movie, you need to get out of the cinema. After the dream, you need to wake up.

REALITY CHECK.

Me and him are not meant for each other. Heartbreaking. Yes, it is. Coz he had agirlfriend. Some might try to kill me because of this. I know this is oh so fucking wrong. But I swear to God that I never planned to fall for him. I didn’t mean to hurt anybody. :| If only I could turn back the hands of time and prevent all of this things from reaching this point then I might already did that. 

Now I don’t know where I stand. He said he loves me. If it’s true, he should have left the other girl. Right? I prevent myself from thinking that, this is all a game. Maybe he needs me now coz the other girl is far from him. Maybe he just need affection and he accidentally found it in me. 

I need to let go of this feeling. This is wrong but it feels right. Argh. As much I want to forget him, to let go of him, to hate him, it started to make me feel bad. God please. Help me!

by anon