I’m currently in a relationship with a guy i absolutely adore and love for a little over 6 months now. We’re both 17, still in high school, and still deciding our future. Since we’re both Seniors now, we’ve been making a lot of big decisions, like, what we wanna do in the future, what we want to major in in college, which college do we want to go to and most importantly, what will happen to us. Every time the topic of “college” comes up between us, i instantly get scared. Because, even though college is important cause it’s the start of our future, he’s also important to me. Last night, we had a deep conversation, about nearly everything. It first started out with just a game of “20 questions” because we were bored, and somehow one question lead to the other, and we started talking about us together in the future. Is it worth the suffering of a possible long distance relationship? Do you really want to just suffer in the first couple months or possible years of missing each other, when we both know we’re not gonna last forever? Are you really even in love with me? We’re in high school. We don’t know what love really is. But the way i care about him, and that feeling in my heart that i have for him, it’s something. It’s something big. Maybe it’s love, maybe it’s not. What if it may lead to love if we just see how being together in college is like. So we talked about this for hours. Is it worth it? But the thing i think we forgot to realize was that, that’s the thing in all relationships. The start of every single relationship, there will be suffering. In the end of it, or even during the relationship. We ended to the conclusion of just seeing how it goes. College life won’t be until June, and who knows if we will even be together by then. But as of now, we have a really strong and good feeling that we’ll be together for a while and still have each other in college. Even with the thought of knowing we’re going to suffer in the end, and that it’ll be hard with college life coming around, he’s so completely worth it. Why not take a chance, right? He, is the person, of all persons, i’d be completely willing to take a chance on having my heart broken, and having all this mishaps of a distant relationship. He’s worth everything, because he means everything to me. So is this love? Who knows. But i think this could be the process and start of love.
by anon