April 23, 2010 - October 1, 2010
This was my boyfriend Eric Ramirez…
We weren’t the best looking couple, which really didn’t matter to me. I was happy with him. We were going to different schools which made things a little difficult, but we managed. I saw him almost every weekend, and he would come see me after school on Thursdays. He wasn’t the type who had the money to buy me gifts, and pay for everything, it’s not like that mattered to me at all. What mattered was that he was mine, and our relationship was almost perfect. We had these stupid little contests over the phone, with stupid little rewards, we were so weird together which I loved. We’d have the longest Goodbye kisses, or just kisses in general. Sometimes when our faces are so close, and our nose are touching, he’d start giving me an eskimo kiss. I started walking him to his bus stop a few weeks ago, and since he rarely ever brought a jacket, we would sit there and cuddle, we would even play the volkswagon game. I always won, but it was only because he loved seeing me happy. Sometimes he’d just look at me in the eyes, and tell me how amazing I am. That’s not everything, but the point is, I loved everything single thing about us. One day, I was sitting on his lap kissing him, than we stopped, he looked into my eyes for the longest time than said “I know you don’t believe in forever… But I’m willing to try… Just for you…”
Eric loved me so much, and I knew it. He was so in love with me, and I knew it. I meant so much to him, and I knew it. He loved me to a point were I really believed he loved me more than I loved him… But now I have the right to say I loved him longer…
On Saturday, Sep. 25, just 2 days after our 5th month… I ruined everything, that’s it… It’s all my fault. I was being selfish, and I ruined 5 amazing months of my life. I still love him, I’m still in love with him…
I want him back more than anything in the world…
Eric Ramirez, I love you so much, give me one last chance to make us right again…
5 months of happiness > 5 days of pain
Love,
Kayla Yee
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