I thought I already said that I don’t want you anymore. In fact I’m sure, that I don’t  want you...

I thought I already said

that I don’t want you anymore.

In fact I’m sure,

that I don’t 

want you anymore.

I hate seeing your face

I hate seeing myself fall apart

at the sight of your smile

I loathe the moments when I want to rush into your arms

without care, 

But I do care

No, I don’t! 

Not anymore, because

I don’t want you anymore.

I hate watching you walk,

so I can walk in sync

I hate watching you talk

When I know those words will never mean what I want them to mean

I’m sick,

I’m tired

and I don’t want you anymore.

But you never wanted me,

So I guess it’s okay

For me to cry to the trees

and cry to the leaves

to speak of the grief

that moves me today

I guess it’s okay

To rip off the limbs

To tear out the stems

Scream from the roots

Of who I truly am

But who am I?

I have to say,

I don’t

quite know.

But neither do you,

so i guess it’s alright

to breathe in the sorrow,

all the bitter sorrow, 

all of what I feel,

that I dread feeling tomorrow

I guess you’ll be okay

if I drown in my soul

Searching for dirt,

Something real, something whole

Crawling from YOU, for YOU make me dull

I guess it’s alright to feel,

and say what I feel, 

Because from only words, and worded truth I’ll heal

But then this is a lie

Because I always wanted you.

You just never wanted me

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