Ever since day one, I’ve seen the best of me inside your eyes. I was always at my best for you, even if that meant hiding all my depressed feelings. We met a year ago, you called me flat-chested, and I didn’t exactly like you. But that all changed during Spring Break ‘10.
It was a Tuesday the first day we hung out. I was over Paul’s house, still recuperating from a hard breakup, and my night turned from bad to worse when my ex texted me saying I’m a stupid bitch. You were there for me to tell me it would all be alright. That was the first time I felt something other than friendly with you.
For about a month after that night, we hung out maybe twice, becoming closer and closer to you each time. Then, the unthinkable happened: you got a girlfriend. I was completely devastated, thinking “how could he do this to me?” You and her broke up about 4 days later and I helped you through that. I knew you were mine.
I dreamt about you every night, the sweetest dreams I’ve ever had. When you told me you liked me more than a friend, I’m pretty sure my heart skipped a beat, but I liked it. Then you told me you loved me. Perfection. You gave me a reason to live and a reason to try my hardest. I said I loved you too.
That brings me to May 3rd.. Such a good day. I was taking my daily walk home from school, and I saw you. I’m pretty sure that was fate. I ran up to you and jumped in your arms, almost like a fairy tale. I was ecstatic, and I’m pretty sure you were too. You ditched all your friends and walked me home. When I was saying goodbye, you kissed me. YOU. KISSED. ME. My heart stopped and all I could do was smile. I was speechless.. Completely speechless. I had to walk away so I didn’t look stunned even though I was. I felt something I never felt with any of my exes.. Love. Passion. Complete and utter happiness.
May 5th. The best day of my life. We were walking home, and you grabbed me in your arms and said “Will you be my girlfriend?” and I died. Well not literally, but I felt like I was in heaven. I said yes, and that’s what started us. From that point on, I fell harder and harder for you every day. Every song on the radio reminded me of you, every love story reminded me of you, I couldn’t get you off my mind. I knew you were different from the rest and I was in love.
We’ve had our fights, we’ve broken up, but somehow we’ve always worked out, until now. I hurt you one too many times and now you’re completely out of my life, leaving me in shock. I miss you more than I’ve ever missed anything, yet somehow I’m at peace with all of this knowing that you’re happy. On the other hand, I’m miserable knowing that I’m still in love with you. Wherever you are, I hope you read this one day and realize that I really do love you more than anything. I know this feeling is gonna last forever. <3