this is pretty long. but i can guarantee you; it’s worth it.
the boy laying next to me is my neighbor, my best friend, my life savor, my boyfriend, my everything.
when i first saw him, something was different. i didn’t realize it then, but i now know. it was 4th of july, and our neighbors were setting off fireworks, so everyone was outside. i was standing at the end of my driveway, and he was near his. i remember just watching him, watching him watch me. i wanted to get to know everything about him, but i didn’t understand why.
eventually, we started talking more. i’d be on a walk, he’d be going home and we’d just stop right there and talk. he was so easy to talk to. after a while, it kind of became our “tradition” to sit outside everyday after we got off the bus and talk for hours at a time. he became my best friend, and i was too blind to see that we were falling in love with each other.
after 4 years, we finally got together. we’ve been together for 8 months now. and let me tell you, those 8 months were some of the best of my life. he’s helped me through everything. heart break from my ex, divorce, abandonment, my past fears.
we are in love. deeply and uncontrollably, in love. true love. i know that we’re young. he’s 14. i’m 15. but i don’t care. i know that we are real. he gives me butterflies, he makes me feel invincible, he makes me feel beautiful for the first time in my life. he’s the only person i can be myself around. i’m going to marry him.
we’ve been through everything together. and i’m not over- exaggerating. we’ve been through things that my mom and my step dad are going through right now, and they’ve been married for 14 years. it sounds crazy, but it’s true. we’ve had the worst times together. but we always fought through them, because our love is stronger then any type of anger, or hate.
i love him with all my heart and soul. with every bone in my body. and i wish so badly that i could write it in words how much he means to me.
we both realize how lucky we are that we found each other next door to each other. how we found each other at such a young age. those two things alone barely ever happen. and both of them happened to us.
alex, i love you. very very much. and i care about you more than anything in the world. i promise that i always will, no matter what. you’re my everything.
december 27th, 2009 <3 you walked into my life&&changed it forever. i [l o v e] you. forever&alifetime. i promise.