being someone’s first love is the greatest thing ever. you don’t have to worry that they compare what you do with their ex’s. you don’t have to worry about part of their heart belonging to someone else and you never having the whole thing. because you are their first love, they’ve never experienced hurt. they only know they love you and that is it. they don’t question it. they don’t need hours of proof that you care for them. they believe everything they say. because well they don’t know any different. they only care for you. their eyes don’t wander and neither do their memories. cherish that if you have it. because the next person you love…
you won’t be their first. you may not even be their second. you might be their third or fourth. and you might think that everything is okay, but really they miss the second person they were with. and wonder what life would be like if things had gone differently with the second one. they lie awake at night and wonder if that person is thinking about them. they tell their friends the attributes they miss the most. and that person that was the second person or whatever number before you holds a part of their heart. a part you will never get. they hold something over your head. the ex rule. the one that says there was a reason that person dated them before you, and there is a reason they are still around. a reason why the person you are with now isn’t so willing to let go of them.
and if you manage to get someone who is willing to let go of an ex for you, their present love so that they can give you they’re whole heart. you hold on to them. and you never let them go. because they will make you their first all over again. even though the memories are there, they don’t rehash them and compare them. they don’t miss them most days when they crawl out of bed. they don’t wish it was someone else snuggled up beside them instead of you.
by tehpooki3