i love you. i love every little thing about you. from your sleepy voice, to your nervous habits. i’ve never been so intrigued or infatuated with anyone. you’ve changed my life in so many ways, all for the better. who would’ve ever thought we’d end up together? who would’ve thought that we would’ve met the way we did? we live in two different states, we were living two completely different lives, but somehow i ended up at the show you were playing here when you were on tour. i’ll always say that show changed my life - as silly and stupid as that sounds. i wasn’t going to go to it. i didn’t want to go to it. but spur of the moment, last minute, i decided to go to it. and really? we didn’t even actually “meet”. we never introduced ourselves. but three months later you started talking to me out of nowhere, and you’d be surprised at how often i think “what would my life be like now if i hadn’t gone to that show?”
the usual distance between us is 166.75 miles, and in all honesty, it has never been an issue. we got to see each other about every other week. God brought us together with that much distance between us, and we knew that if we trusted in Him, and trusted that His plan and His will for us was divine and perfect, that it wouldn’t be a problem. we knew that if we let God lead us, anything was possible. but as of now? you’re at boot camp in georgia, approximately 2425.83 miles away from me. seventeen weeks is a long time. seventeen weeks is a long time to go without texting you every second of everyday, to go without hearing the voice that calms me and reassures me, to go without falling asleep on the phone with you every night.
i miss you already, but i know we can do this. i’ll miss you poking fun at me in your “emma voice”, and saying after everytime you do that, without fail, “oh, is that how i sound?”, and you saying “yeah, kind of :)”. i’ll miss going to church with you and listening to country music while driving around with you. i’ll miss getting butterflies like i do everytime you kiss me. i’ll miss feeling my cheeks blush, and how lucky i feel when you tell me i’m beautiful when my hair is a mess and i have no makeup on. heck, i’ll even miss how sore of a loser you are :) i’ll miss playing “guess what?” with you. but most of all, i’ll miss hearing you tell me you love me. i’ll miss feeling how genuine and sincere your voice is every time you say it.
slowly but surely i realize more and more everyday, that the true test of love, isn’t when you’re with the person that you love. the true test of love is when you’re far away from each other, and realize that despite the distance; love is still there.
you are such an incredible man of God. i feel so blessed to know you. i am so blessed to have a best friend like you, and i am so blessed to call you my boyfriend. i am so blessed that i am yours. you are the best thing that’s ever been mine, and i hope and pray that i get the honor of one day being able to call you my husband, and spending the rest of my life making you the happiest man alive, and pursuing God and growing in in our faith together, for the rest of our lives. and remember, “we got this”. i love you, my sweet boy.
“God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.” - James 1:12