I loved you so fucking much. I thought we were perfect for each other. You promised..you promised you’d never let me go. And that you didn’t give a fuck about what other people thought.
Where did all your happiness go? I want my old Garebear back. The one who I could walk to CVS with holding hands, the one who’s arms I could just jump into and kiss you, and especially the one where I could tell you I loved you. Ever since school started, you became a different guy. One that was edgy with me, one that acted weirdly sometimes.
I should have known this was coming when you first tried breaking up with me, the night I got my homecoming dress. But you heard me wailing across the room..and you promised me we’d make it work. Yeah. That was a lie. The last time we hung out, you were crying with me. I thought that meant something..but I guess you found someone else.
Remember that time we went on to kennywood? It was a little awkward at first. But when we went on the log jammer twice, and I turned around and we just kissed, it was perfect. And then on the Phantom…our best kiss was at the very top, the third time we went on. I’ll never forget that day. I hope you don’t either.
I think one of my favorite memories of us was right before we officially dated. We went to those woods by the rec center. I was freezing in my tube top so you let me wear your shirt. And then we danced in the rain. You told me how much you liked me, how you never wanted to ever lose me. I miss those words. 3 I miss you.
I wish you were still in love with me. If only you could see me right now, tears threatening to fall form my eyes. I wish you could realize how much I care about you..how I’ll never forget about you, no matter how hard I try.
I love you Garrett. Your children(stuffed animals) miss you. Mcgeiver, Garebear, and Gossamer. They’ll probably never end up seeing you again. And neither will I. Unless you really want to ever see me again.
Everything I did for you..the compassion between us, the intimacy between us when we were both shirtless..I miss it. I hope you never forget those times. If I could, I’d travel back to the beginning of August. And freeze time. Just so I could feel your overbearing hugs again.
Maybe one day I’ll show you this. Maybe not. But this will be forever in my notes so that I will never forget about you. I miss you. <3
We broke up September 24th, 2011. I wrote this note on my iPod October 5th. I don’t really feel that way anymore, but I’m always gonna miss him. We’re trying to work it out as friends, but I don’t think it’ll ever happen. I just needed to get this out.
by anonymous