I love you with everything in me, I gave you my all, what else can you possibly take from me? We had this amazing relationship, it was perfect in every sense of the word, and maybe that was our downfall, maybe that’s why we are where we are right now. Words can not describe my feelings for you, and how much you truly mean to me, but I can’t stand it anymore. I thought when you loved someone you would drop everything for them. I thought your supposed to stay up with them all night talking, but you stopped all that not me, and your excuse was you where tired. You stopped doing the things you used to do and for that I blame you. What happened to you, you say you care, but honestly where is the effort anymore? Is this how you fight for the person you love? Can you honestly say that this is all you have left in you? After a year and a half? What happened to wanting to be with one another twenty four seven? What happened to the girl that fell in love with me, the one who asked for as many kisses as possible? What happened to the girl that begged me to hang out? What happened to the girl who reached for my hand every chance she got? What happened to the girl that fell in love with me? You talk about how we met because of fate, yet now fate seems to be tearing us apart. Is that what you really want? Yeah I’m this terrible person because I am content with walking away from you, but can you honestly truly blame me for that? I’ve given up on you because you really have changed and in changing you honestly stopped doing all those things and you wonder why I blame you? Yeah I know I’m not perfect either, but I never stopped loving you I never stopped caring, I have always had this sense of wonder when it came to you, and in itself that meant everything to me. Why then is it okay for us to be like we are now? I have all these questions for you, yet I lack the ability to ask them because I don’t want to hear you say that you can’t answer them. I understand you have given up things for me, but what you don’t understand is that I have also given up things for you. You tell me that we are fixable, but I can’t be the one doing all the work, and that’s all it feels like now every time I come back, and its not fair to me. The things you have done to me you yourself even considered unforgivable. Thus doesn’t it make sense that you should be the one doing the majority of the fixing? I am so tired of hearing you tell me that you are sorry, and that you are going to try harder because all you do now is talk you never show me that you want us anymore. It is honestly killing me, and it is slowly draining the life out of me. If your just going to constantly try and talk to me about fixing us and never actually ever do anything to show it, then I wont be satisfied, I wont feel happy, I wont feel wanted, and I especially wont feel loved. I lost that feeling and you do nothing to get it back, and perhaps that makes me this terrible person because I haven’t done anything to get you back but I don’t feel loved anymore, hell I don’t even feel wanted anymore! I wasn’t lying when I said I don’t know who you are anymore, I honestly don’t and yeah its my own fault, but you haven’t shown me either, we hardly do anything together anymore, and perhaps it is just better to go separate ways despite how much it hurts. Despite how badly I actually do want to work things out with you. I can’t sit around and wait for you to realize all this, I can’t sit around and wait for you to understand that I’m literally torn, that I am literally bruised, and that everything that has happened has destroyed me as a whole.
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