This is my mom, my hero, my fighter :)
She had been fighting against cancer for about 2 and a half years. About 2 months ago in October, the Lord had decided to take her, to end all the pain and suffering. It wasn’t the right time, it won’t ever be. I kept questioning, why now?
It was just a month before I had my final public examinations, and my mother left me. She was always the one, who gave me motivation, to push me through it all, to tell me, she believed in me and that she knew I’d always be able to do it, no matter what. Why then?
Why did she have to have cancer? I hated cancer, I still do, I always will. Why did it have to take my mother away? I never thought I’d lose her, never thought I’d lose her to such cruel sickness. When she fell ill, I kept believing, everything would turn out fine, but I guess not.
I would never be angry at God’s plans, because he knows what’s the best, and he always has a plan for all of us :) Mommy has taught me, it’s not a matter of living up to an old age, you may have completed everything you need to in life, and that’s where God realizes you’re worthy enough, and have done enough, to go be with him, to go join him in a place with no pain or hurt or sufferings. Mommy had completed her journey :)
I miss her, every single day. It still hasn’t really sunken in. She was my hero, my favorite person to talk to. Sure, as a mother, it was normal for her to have given me long lectures, and all but at the end of the day, it was for my own good. I miss my Mommy :(
I think about her everyday, I have dreams about her, and I don’t like them. Why must I still have those dreams? Why did Mommy have to leave me :( I know she’s in a much better place, with no pain :) that’s a good thing, but I can’t help but to miss her.
Mommy, this post is dedicated to you :) I’m sure you know that I miss you very much, and I think about you every single day. I wish you were still here with me, to take me Christmas shopping and all :) hope everything’s fine and I’ll see you soon Mommy :)
“I have fought the good fight. I have finished my course. I have kept the faith.” 2 Timothy 4:7
I LOVE YOU, MOMMY :)
by brensofoxy