You are the one who caught me, after my first break-up, when I was so young to realize what real love is. You were the one who taught me many things, you opened my eyes to the things I should’ve known. You let me feel how to be treasured, yet I was a fool to play a game. When I said that it was over, I wasn’t even thinking. All I want is to experience how to break-up with someone, also. I can still remember your words to me that day, you were begging to talk it over. but I was too hasty to end up what we’ve started. I was stupid. You never failed to remind me how much I mean to you, how much you love to hear my voice before you go to bed. But I was stupid to neglect all those things. I was so young back then. I was so naive about feelings. For me, it was just an introduction, but for you, it was the body already. I never felt sorry until I realized that I’m missing you already. When I was ready to accept that I committed a mistake, you were out there, so hurt and will not talk to me. You were with someone else, looking so happy without me in your life. And now that four years have passed, I’m so happy to see you smiling with your love one. But this feeling of happiness has also an equal feeling off longing and guilt. Longing because for four years, we haven’t talked and we didn’t sort things out because your girlfriend told you so. Guilt because I wasn’t able to return the love you’ve let me feel when we were together.
I’m just letting my feelings pour out now because I’m deciding to finally forget my feelings for you. But every time your name and photo appears on my newsfeed, the memories keep flooding again. How can I forget the feelings for you? - PACV
by solidchrist