My heart beats against my chest, begging to be let out. It’s like a prisoner banging on the walls protecting and containing it. My hands shake like I’ve had too much caffine and my head spins like I’ve had one sip too many. Your eyes burn holes into me and I want you here and now. I’m addicted to you as a whole. I stare back and it’s a plan. We communicate in a different language based on looks and touches, everything physical and subtle, undetectable by others. We sneak away because no one will understand and what we have is too delicate to share. The doors are locked; the lights off and soon we are one. I want you. You want me. Nothing complicated each of us filling a void caused by heartbreak. We move together in darkness: pulling, biting, nibbling, scratching, yearning to dig deeper than the surface. But we don’t dare. In an instant it’s over, we separate and pretend it didn’t happen at all. We keep it shallow ignoring anything that could change things, I burry the emotions, the feelings, the desire to be more than the one filling the void. You see, what you don’t understand is I want you not only here and now but forever. I don’t mind being your dirty little secret but I’m not sure how long I can play this game knowing I’ve already lost.
by scairp