You know whats a sad reality?
Knowing the fact that you werent his/hers first love. Its a sad reality that many has to face. At first you don’t think much of it, cause you think “oh its the past doesn’t matter anyways” but after a while, couple months in, you do think of it. You find things, discover things.. and then BAM you start comparing. You think about what they had before, and you may or not feel jealousy, but you feel this other feeling where you actually feel sorry for them. Its like your actually rooting for them and at some point you can actually say… dang they had a perfect story, the’re so cute together. The next stage you start comparing how they treated their previous relationship person, how they were as people call it “wipped”, like doing all these romantic unforgettable moments without feeling embarrased for being like that. You see how they put in large amounts of effort to make that person not feel insecure, special and the only one that mattered to them. Even the littlest things that a gentleman/lady should be doing to their significant other. You may even start expecting things and wondering if there was anything wrong with you that the person doesn’t do these things, or even why they’ve stopped. They may think its foolish, but how is it foolish when you putting words into actions.
You listen to these stories. You discover things. After you compare their story, you compare yourself to them. You think what that other person has got that you dont have. How they were sooo similar to each other that they just matched perfectly. The person may say that they do but you guys have similar things too, but you know that they shared a greater bond. You got a chance to see them together, and you see how identical, how each one had a part of the other. It’s wonderful, honestly. You try hidding this all from them, but you tell them eventually. Its hard to explain but they get the idea. In the end, though you may have them… you think that the previous person who had your person before, was so damn lucky.
Being someones first love, I say is the greatest thing ever. You see them at their best. Its the best when they realise that your the one because you can actually see that they are endlessly doing whatever they can to keep you. Lucky I say, and one you should never end. After a while you get over it. You tell yourself, or they tell you that you have them right now which in fact is true. But it doesn’t hide the reality that they have made a mark on them. A mark that changed the person they were before. A person that you want him/her to show in their current self because you think that how come they’ve tried so hard before, but with me… yeah. You accept them for who they are now but you just want to glimpse.