I don’t understand how someone can say they love you, promise to stay with you and never hurt you, plan their life with you – and then just leave.
I don’t understand how someone can spend every second with you, the good and the bad… how they can tell you all their secrets and hurts and desires… - and then walk away like it was nothing.
How can someone say that they love you and then leave you hanging like everything that you went through with that person never happened? Do they forget it all? How can someone wake up one morning and not be in love with you anymore? How can they act like they don’t care about you, or say that you don’t care about them after everything you have done together?
I don’t understand. Maybe I don’t know how it works, but I believe you when you say that you love me, when you say that you want to spend your forever with me, when you tell me that you’ll always be mine. I believe you when you tell me countless times that you’ll stay by my side. I can’t help but think that everything you said to me was a lie until you left – when you told me you thought that I was perfect, When you told me that I would always be your beautiful baby girl, When you would looked me in the eyes and told me that you would be there for me every step of the way. I can’t help but think that all of that was just a lie, up until the point when you said you were sick of how I was treating you, sick of how I made you feel, sick of me. Up until when you told me that you were done with me and that all I have done is hurt your heart. All of the hurtful things that you said to me, I believe just as much as I believed when you told me the sweet things. But when you said the hurtful things… they stuck more. They hit home, tore me apart, engraved themselves into my brain. They made me feel like you didn’t mean any of the things that you said before them. I hate doubting you, I hate feeling like you lied to me, but when I have to lay in my bed at night alone and think about all of the great times we had, all of the amazing things we did, everything that you said to me… It gets hard to believe what’s true and what’s not. I can’t figure anything out and its tearing me apart. Why can’t we just start it over? Why can’t we just patch things up? We were best friends before we were lovers, we were bound at the hip before we were attached at the heart. I wish I could go back and start things over. I wish we could make this right. But mostly I wish that I trusted a thing that you said to me anymore… I wish that you said things to me nowadays. We used to not be able to go a second without talking, now we go weeks.
I miss you, Tim. 51811 - 111911 .. 3 I will forever love you.
by anonymous