This is Todd. Right now, we aren’t together.. Which is harder that anything i have ever been through in my life.
We started off as best friends. I dated one of his friends and he was still there for me. Last October he was having problems with his ex. I was starting to have feelings for him but i wasn’t going to let him know because i didn’t know that he also had those feelings for me. He told me he wasnt happy in the relationship and i told him that he shouldn’t lead her on and end it if he wasn’t truely happy. The next day i got a text saying that they had broken up. We started talking shortly, like 2 days shortly, after my 18th birthday. We saw each other every single day and always had fun just sitting in the car, and listening to music. Our relationship and friendship had always been simple like that.
On November 4th, 2010 we made everything official. It was the best day of my life. No one truely knew how happy i really was. Our relationship matured fast, probably because he is 21. He grew to be my everything. We planned our future together, we both can’t have kids so we planned on adopting. We were head over heels. No one has and never will make me feel the way he did and still does.
We went on a break on October 3rd, 2011 and broke up October 25th. It was over one of his friends who tried to use having a friendship with me to get close to him. Which worked. She tore our relationship apart completely. While i was at college, she would pick him up and they would hang out. She would text him constantly and tweet nonstop lovely dovey stuff about him. I beat myself up for letting myself get so jealous of their friendship because that was the main reason why we did break up. But since We have broken up, we havent gone a day without talking. We still celebrated our anniversary, and we are now “talking” again and trying to patch our relationship up. We still talk about the future, and we know that it is meant to be and it will happen in time.
So, for anyone who is going through the same thing, have hope and faith that things will work out for the best. He was telling me it would be a long time before we could be okay again, and now we are almost back to normal. Just take a step back and remember the other important things in life. :) Because i had growing up to do to realize that this man is the only person i want for the rest of my life. Even though i am 19 and he is about to be 22, we are still soul mates. Never give up.
“Goodnight moon, and goodnight you when youre all that i think about, all that i dream about. Howd i ever breathe without a goodnight kiss from goodnight you the kind of hope they all talk about, the kind of feelings we sing about. Sit in our bedroom and read aloud like a passage from goodnight moon.”