Someone asked me this question today and it made me stop and think for the longest time. Two years ago was probably the most awkward but fulfilling point in my life.
I met Conner 2.5 years ago through a mutual friend. Three months later we got together and made things official. He was my first kiss, my first relationship, hell if you ask me he was the first guy to express he like me. Of course I was happy and giddy, but I felt awkward most of the time because I didn’t know what being a girl friend was all about. He’s had one other girl friend besides me who jumped into the relationship moving quicker than he expected. But with me it was different, he knew I was inexperienced and he thought it was the best thing ever. He didn’t have to worry about me comparing him to other guys I had been with. I’ll never forget what he said to me:
“Anabella, I want to be the boyfriend that shows you how to give your love. I want you to be able to trust me with everything you have.” [pause] “You know those romantic comedies you’ve made me watch for the last month, I want to be that perfect guy who seems so perfect from an outside perspective. I’m not saying we will be the perfect couple, in fact you WILL get annoyed about my manly personality and wanting to be right all the time. We will fight, we will argue, and we probably will want a week to ourselves, but that will only make us stronger.”
Now I know that sounds fake and a guy would never say that. But, HE DID! I sat there and asked him, “Where’s the tape recorder that this voice that sounds like yours is coming out of?” He just laughed and told me he was serious. He was right about everything though. We did have problems for a couple months where I was going through a rough spot and wouldn’t let him help me so he got very mad. Then things flipped where he went out and partied alot with his friends and left me at home crying because I thought he was cheating on me. We’ve gone through hell and back in the last year, but things are becoming so different. Its almost like we woke up one day and threw all our issues away and we both matured.
If you would have asked me during the first 2 months of our relationship if I ever expected to be so in love with Connor, I wouldn’t have been able to give you an answer. We both went into this thinking we were going to have fun and take it as we go. We’re both continuing this thinking what can we do together that will make our lives better. I’m not going to jinx things and say I think he’s the one I want to marry, but if its God’s will then it will happen. <3.\
by loversjungle