She’s torn up, she’s upset, she’s depressed. But she’s still beautiful.
I made a horrible mistake to let her go when she needed me, when worse things await her. I made her go through it all by herself. She always blame herself when I get upset. The truth is, I NEVER ONCE BLAMED HER. I can swear to god on that. I blamed myself, for the unrealistically high expectations and the immaturity in me.
I’ve put in so much for her in the past 5 months, so has she. Even though the things that we do for each other still do have great disparities, the effort behind it is almost equal.
I feel your love darling. It hurts me when you blame and put everything on yourself. I know you hate sharing, I know you hate marriages. I don’t blame you, different people go through different events in life which molds them that way. I did look at things from your perspective believe me. That’s why i said I will wait for you, till you are ready. I won’t give up. Not gonna give up on my world. And even if the eventual outcome is not what I wished for, I will still thank you for all your love. And I will still love you as always.
I Love You my dear. I will stand by you, I’m always here for you.
by darthjb