dear "Gone to college",

I must be honest with you; enough is enough… You need to know it all. Upon meeting you, I was worried that you weren’t going to think highly of me, but you opened up to me so quickly and we became so closes in a short amount of time. After working with you and being with you for that last month during summer, you slowly stole my heart… bit after bit, piece after piece. And, you know, I’m alright with that— I’m glad you came and swept me off my feet. You were such a gentleman and I take that for granted sometimes. Truth is: you’re the only guy I’ve ever went on so many dates with that was never once a jerk to me.

I never got to thank you for all the things you did for me on those warm August nights. So, here is my complete list of thank you’s.

Thank You For:

1. Treating me like I was the only girl you could see, all the time 24-7
2. Taking me out to the movies that night I was fighting with my dad so I could clear my head
3. Picking me up after work because you didn’t want to drive 45 minutes home without seeing me first
4. Paying for all the dinners/movies/entertainment we went out to
5. Listening when I told you I always wanted to write on First Bridge with a sharpie…
6. Getting me a box of sharpies and taking me to First Bridge to sign our names underneath
7. Telling me I have a pretty singing voice, even though you’re the one in a successful band
8. Using the “:3” face after every adorable text-conversation we ever had and making it our own little thing
9. Drawing “:3” on every object when we were together so that I would see it later and think of you
10. Teaching me that there really are some great guys out there
11. Holding my hand when we walked through the dark because I told you I was scared
12. Admiring the beauty in nature and taking me to the top of the Ledge all summer
13. Going to the top of the Ledge and watching the shooting stars with me
14. Watching the coincidental fireworks on the top of the Ledge
15. Letting me use your shoulder as a pillow all the time
16. Always offering to take your car so that I could save gas
17. Making me that mix because I didn’t have any CD’s in my car
18. This conversation: 
    me: “you looked so good. when you walked into work, everyone’s eyes were on you.”
    you: “well I know where mine were.”
19. Telling me I’m beautiful
20. Waiting 4 dates to hold my hand
21. Waiting 6 dates to kiss me
22. Not pressuring me to do anything more
23. Hopping that fence with me in the park when we saw my ex
24. Running down the streets of town in the rain with me
25. Making sure that I was taken care of, in every single situation
26. Assuring me that when you left for college at the end of the summer that we would still be friends, no matter what
27. Respecting me 120% and encouraging me to do great things
28. Keeping me company through all the rough times
29. Discussing intelligent things with me (e.i.- religion, politics, beliefs, etc.)
30. Admiring my opinions but having your own
31. Holding the door open for me
32. Having good table manors
33. Making me feel amazing
34. Teaching me how to deal with distance
35. Walking down the street with me while there was thunder and lightning outside
36. Continuing to work at the retail store we met at so during holiday seasons we can work together
37. Lip Syncing with me in your car to ridiculous songs
38. Always getting me home by curfew to impress my dad
39. Still talking to me now that 2 months have passed since you left
40. Planning days to come visit while I’m still a senior in highschool
41. Not forgetting me, completely, for other girls
42. All the voice mails that just say “Hey, just seeing how you’re doing. Your phone must be off so I’ll call back another time to see how everything is.”
43. Calling me cute when I did something stupid/clumsy
44. Inspiring me to fulfill my musical career 
45. Telling me stories that were similar to my own, because we had too much [coincidentally] in common
46. Singing for me
47. Never wanting to take me back home
48. Pulling away slowly and smiling when we kissed to get me to be closer to you
49. All the goodnight-kisses and “so I’ll see you tomorrow then, same time?” ‘s
50. Not breaking my heart just yet

I know that one day I’ll have to realize that we’re miles apart, and that we most likely will never start anything with such a distance. But a girl can dream. This winter will be the best winter with you, and I’ll wait however long it takes to have another month full of time for you and I.
sincerely,”I’m not giving up just yet”

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