Dear you;
This is just for you. You’re never going to read this, and believe me, I don’t intend you to. I just wanted to let you know, that you are amazing. While we were dating, you were amazing. You still shine just as bright in my world now, as you did before. I’m sorry I broke your heart, repeatedly. Whenever I have something good, I seem to pick at it and throw it away. You were more than good. You were exceptional, and I’m so glad we happened.
When I broke up with you for the last time, I thought that this was going to be easy. I thought I could do this, I thought I didn’t love you anymore. I’m writing this to tell you how wrong I was to think that. Yes, I’m with someone else, and yes I do have feelings for them. He makes me happy, and he’s lovely. However, I have never stopped loving you. I lie to you, and tell you I have because I’m scared of telling you that the feelings I have could rip the world apart. I broke your heart, and now I’m breaking my own.
Of course, you’re never going to know. You’re never going to read this, and you’re never even going to figure out it’s me. I regret leaving you so much that it haunts me everyday. The way your voice sounds, the way you’d say my name. The way you’d tell me that you loved me. You’re everywhere, in everything I do. Your feelings have drifted elsewhere now and it’s killing me, yes. The thing is, I’m going to love you enough to let you go. You deserve better than I gave you, you deserve the best in the world.
I’m breaking my own heart, but at least I get to watch you be happy. It’s breaking me down, but your smile keeps me going. I’m doing this for you, because I love you.
Just know that whatever happens, I hope your happy. I hope you never stop smiling, and I hope that you have an amazing life okay? Because God knows you deserve it. As for me? I’ll always be here when you need me, and you’ll never know what I’m going through. And that’s fine by me. This is my fault, and I’m sorry. I’ll live with the consequences that I brought upon myself.
I love you, and I wish you the best of luck baby.
Love from, Me.
by -cumbucket