This is my boyfriend and me. His name is Jacob. He means the world to me. I don’t know what I would do with out him. He is so amazing. I love this picture. I don’t know why but I do.
Anyways. We have been together for almost three years. We meet because our dads worked together since we were babies. He had always been in my life but we were never close since my mother didn’t like his parents much. But the summer before freshman year his parents got a divorce and his dad moved in next door. I remembered him from when we went over to his house on Christmas in 2006 and I was anxious to see him again. That summer I saw him a few times. He looked different in the year and half since I last saw him and I knew he had to have gone through something. I could see it in his eyes. And I wanted to take the pain away. I feel for him all over again (I had like him that day on Christmas) but he was with someone. After that I would find excuses to talk to him or even just see him. I have to admit I was obsessed. Then one night in December we somehow ended up outside my house talking. About everything. And that’s when I knew I wanted him. I was still unsure of his feelings for me. I wanted more. I almost reached out and pulled him to me. I almost kissed him but then he brought up his girlfriend. I had never been the other girl and I never wanted to. When he had to go I said goodbye and went inside to watch cars. I tried not to talk to him. But about a week later I decided that I didn’t care if he was with some one I was just going to let my feelings be known. Lucky for me they had broken up and lucky for me he was having feelings for me too. We were both going through some things at the moment and we slowly learned to trust each other and lean on each other when things got hard.And we fell in love.
Since the beginning we had somewhat of a distance between us. This has made things a challenge for me and some points. Missing him really got to me sometimes. I drove me crazy and how it effected me brought us problems about a year ago and led to a break up. It was horrible. I couldn’t function. It got worse when he tried to forget me but being with someone else. A month later however he realized it would work and I forgave him and he forgave me. Sadly to say that didn’t last. Almost five months later we broke up again due to increase fighting. It’s was even worse. He said some really mean things to me to try and get me to leave and give up on us. To cover his mistake of once again trying to be with someone else. I lost faith us this time. Though I still loved him I also tried to move on. I started flirting with my neighbor and made plans to go on a date with him. But it had to wait because I planned to go away for the summer to my best friends house. While I was there we reconnected but I went home single. I went on the date but all I could think about was how I wished I was with Jacob. I did have fun but I felt nothing like the connection I shared with Jacob. I knew that I couldn’t be without him. And he couldn’t be without me. I don’t know when or how it happened but in the second week of August we got back together and I am happy to say it is going great. I still have my moments where I let my fears get the best of me but I am learning to be stronger and not break down all the time. I hope we can go all the way and be happy forever.
I love this boy with all my heart. He means to much to me. I love him. Forever. I have tried many times to be without him but I don’t think that it’s possible. I need and want him in my life forever. I am so thankful that I was fortunate to met my soul mate at such a young age. I know we still need to mature and find ourselves but as long as he is by my side I know I can do anything I set my mind to. I look forward to my future with him.
Tumblrs <3
him: sexuallmannchalkolate.tumblr.com (he doesn’t use it much)
mine: ohheycassay.tumblr.com