Those are the most beautiful and important people I have in my life.
At the left, it’s a Japanese singer, Suzuki Airi.
That sounds pretty dumb, eh? To considere a singer as one of the most important soul on that earth for us. For me, it’s not. That singer, though she don’t really “know” me personally, she helped me more than you think. And I already wrote so many things about her… There are people who arrive a day in your life, and that upset everything in their path, Airi is one of those people for me, well not really, she’s this person.. My whole world revolves around this girl. Through every thing she can do, each goal she can reach, it makes me happy. And you know, it’s a special feeling that only few people can feel. She exudes such a ray of happiness in my heart, she exists, and it’s the only thing that know how to fill me day after day. Because I know she is there. This girl is a work of art in its purest form, a marvel. Believe me, if there’s one person I wouldn’t regret having made the acquaintance it’s her, she gives me the courage to face my fears, my deepest demons, having trust in me, with her I don’t feel like holding on to something that I just hope, no , I feel like flying over this thing and finally achieve a goal even more gigantic than I had expected. She fascinates me, she inspires me, and I love her with all my being. When things go wrong, simply look at her pictures gives me a warm feeling inside myself. When I have no more strength, when I have no more motivation, I stare at her, and I think she wouldn’t want me to be in this state, because she wouldn’t be in it, that she would fight until the end. And when I see this piece of life to eat in front of me, when I see those bright eyes that hint at a heart filled with love and kindness, I let myself be carried, to reach out and keep fighting as if I had to do it for her. This girl is mesmerizing, hypnotic, and totally disconnected of everyone. Passion, determination, ambition are qualities so evident in her every action. She kills me. It’s enormously difficult for me to describe the love I have for her, because I don’t think it can be written and turned into words. Simply because it’s unique and indescribable. My heart is so pure when it’s filled only with thoughts about her, that love is passionate, sentimental, I am a girl who admires another girl, for the human and the young person she is. I definitely don’t know what I would do if she wouldn’t be a part of my life right now. Millions of words could describe her, but even raising the moon doesn’t describe the magnitude, the trace that she has left in my mind. Nobody can remove me, this intense adrenaline she gives me. When I would see her, I want it to be a a unique encounter for her as for me, I want to be in her spirit as she marked my own, I want me to exist for her as she exists for me. When that day comes, the day I could have her in front of me, the day I could take her hand, or breathe the same air she breathes, I would cry. I’d cry and all happiness she made me feel will emerge from those tears, and I’d smile. I would say thank you, thank you for all she has done for me.
At the right, it’s my bestfriend, Joao.
Joao is the only person which I loved as I loved that previous Japanese singer. Through all the thing he do, he makes me feel so full and strong. I can be who I really am with him, he understands everything. He’s always there to make me laugh, and I never met someone like that. I just… I just feel so empty without him now. I think I couldn’t even live without him, I wonder what I would do now if I didn’t have that guy which gives me courage and makes me smile everyday through all my problems. This guy, it’s like it’s my soulmate, in a friendly way. People tend to say that it’s because he’s gay that we’re so close like that, I just think that it’s because we love each others in a way that nobody can explain. With Suzuki Airi, I’m a fan through millions. With Joao, I’m the only one. And this is something I never felt before. I will do everything and anything for him. We’re having a distance friendship, but we have projects for life. He’s my bestfriend, yet I think if I had a boyfriend he would still be the most important. I need him now. Everyday. Joao is the only person I can don’t speak with for 3 weeks and then after saying “HI I HAVE A STUFF TO TELL TO YOU”, and he will still love me the same way. He never disappointed me. He’s just the only person which trust me and understand me. I hope that I can full his heart as he do for mine. He’s my first real bestfriend, and he’ll be the only one for forever. I don’t really know what’s forever. It’s awhile, but, right now, it’s what I think.