When we first met, I was going through a lot of bullshit. From April to May, I was trying to figure out how to let go of someone. From June to July, I wasn’t myself. And then August, I confided in you. I made too many bad decisions this summer, however I cannot spend the rest of my life regretting them.
As everyone knows I currently work at VS. A lot of my coworkers have been noticing my recent happiness. They said when I first started I was so miserable, I was depressed, even throughout the summer. But somehow the past two months I’ve known Him somehow it changed me. With you everything is magic. All this talk about how happy I am now brought me to the conclusion that it’s you.
I’ve never felt like I wanted to stay and do everything for someone in a long time. I never felt that any person before was really worth it. I guess you all can call me crazy or say my feelings are fake or call me crazy for only knowing him for such a short amount of time.
I can remember every single thing that has happened and the memories are so vivid in my head.
Sprinklers. Our very first cute moment.
“The sprinklers are going to come on.”
“It’s okay, I have a blanket.”
And as planned the sprinklers went off and we were wrapped up in a blanket together trying to get away from the sprinklers.
The Korean Poem. You played guitar to make me fall asleep and recited a poem and I remember getting smad because you wouldn’t tell me what it meant. But come to find out it was something about love.
Taking care. You always feed me, brush my hair, make sure I have a blanket, let me use your jacket, etc.
The songs you wrote for me, and the rap verse. And it’s kinda funny that you recited and sang all of them and I had no idea they were written for me.
Firsts. A handful of firsts.
Intensity. The intensity of the relationship. Somehow we manage to have weakened knees and shortened breaths whenever we kiss.
Desert Shores Lake. The day I found out you were leaving, you kissed me in the pouring rain for the first time.
Mountain. I’ve never met a boy who would run up and down a huge mountain twice just because I forgot something in my car and I dropped something running down the mountain with you. > Soulmate. This was also the day we talked about Soulmate and Lover in Boys Before Flowers. You kept telling me I’ll find someone better. And I refused. > The Strip. We walked around aimlessly on the strip together and you kept shouting out “She’s taken,”
Bazic. Now we ran into my old friends. I got to introduce you to Riky and everyone. And we shared our first dance. Of course, I was a little shy because I didn’t know how to dance, but you got me to warm up to you. > Official.09.17.11 You asked me to be your girlfriend and I find it cute how you always tell me “don’t let me go kay?”
He said, she said:
“You know you’re beautiful right?”
“You know you’re handsome, right?”
“You know I love you, right?”
“Yes.”
I love you. This is a bit embarassing, but when you first told me you loved me…I literally tripped and fell.
Singing. How you played guitar and made my heart melt and our voices blended and harmonized with one another.
The “Bro” Moment. Need I say more?
The gifts we gave to each other. I’ll always cherish them.
This isn’t even all of it, we have a ton of great memories in such short little time. You make me one lucky girl, just like I said that night. I believe in us, I believe in you. I know you could hurt me, but I’m going to trust you fully and whole heartedly because you wouldn’t do anything to hurt me. You have my full 100% trust.
Love is happiness. Love is unlimited. You’re worth the wait. No matter how hard this will be. You are the sole reason of my smiles, laughter, happiness and everything in between. You’re my soulmate, my eternal partner for life.
Four days or less, is all I have with you, and I can’t wait to visit you. I worry that you’ll go hungry and I won’t be able to be there to bring you food, I worry that if you get sick, how am I supposed to take good care of you? I worry that if you need me around or if you’re depressed or having nightmares, how would I be there to give you a hug and a kiss? I can’t wait to move to Seattle with my friend, I know we can make this work. This is only the beginning and I’m going to give it my all, and as promised: no expiration date.
Don’t ever forget, wherever you go: I’m always with you. Just like the clock goes “I Love You.”
We’re in each others hearts.
<3