August 18th 2011: i led you to my bedroom like i didnt know your name, your hands were grabbing, mine were shaking, your lips met mine with lust not love and we continued, one kiss, one breath, touching, reaching, for what i dont know. and then it was over. and we laid there feeling used. expendable. You pulled me to you and whispered words that werent right. And then the grabbing continued. But in that moment, with your hand around my shoulders, i was happy. And then you left and told me thank you. But not for the love. For the sex.
And i am devastated.
Weve been broken up for three months after 2 long years. And Im struggling to live without him. September 2009-June 21st 2011