I’m Frances, and I am in love with this boy, Carlo. We’ve been together for 5 months already (well, technically). Just last week, we decided to talk. I knew something was up. Because I’ve noticed that there were changes in us. We were so far from how we were on our first few months. When he came back from Dubai, there were teeny weeny changes, not only in him, but in our relationship. I didn’t mind, ‘cause I not it’s normal. But then,I was wrong. The teeny weeny changes had become so serious. He’s often cold, and just.. I dunno, not the normal him. I know that there’s something bothering him. So last last week, on our bus trip, from our overnight at our friend’s house, I asked him, “How are we? How have we been doing?” He noticed the change of tone in my voice, and asked “What’s with the surprise attack?” then everything started there. We both knew there was something wrong with us, but no one knew how to start it or bring it up. I dunno if it was a good thing for me to bring it up, ‘cause it led our relationship to a cool-off. He said he wanted space and time to think things over. I never wanted to give him space, but if that’s what makes him happy, then I’ll give it to him (although I’m pretty much hurting right now).
I honestly don’t know what our status is right now, we’re still like the old us, but no labels. No girlfriend/boyfriend. Just us. I dunno, it isn’t just a label, it means a lot in a relationship. But I’ll do whatever it takes to save our relationship. He said he’s saving me from the heartbreak I’ll be getting once he leaves for Dubai (for good). He’s gonna study college in Dubai, and I’m gonna be left here in PH. We’ve talked about it before, long distance relationship stuff. At first I was hesitant, ‘cause our future together seemed so unsure and uncertain. But then we talked it over, and said we’re gonna make it through. All we needed was faith, trust and love. So I threw all away my uncertainties and believed in us. But then, now…. He’s the one being uncertain. He’s losing grip of what we have right now. And now he said he needs to think things over. Last week, we both decided to cool things off for a while. Things have been really so complicated. But then, I’m still here for him, open arms if ever he’ll come back to me.. again. It may really sound so crazy and stupid, but yeah.. I dunno. I’ll do whatever it takes to have him back.
We usually submit posts at fuckyeahhlove. I miss how we anxiously wait for our posts to be published. We posted 5 or more. I miss how we do that. :| I miss every little things we do (not that we don’t do it anymore, but things have been really so different right now). I just miss him, and the old us.
I never lost hope for us, and never will. Still, I’m, here for you baby, whatever happens. I told you we’ll make it through. I know we will. I Love You So Much 13aby.