When I started dating my second boyfriend, I was so content and joyous about being in a relationship with an amazingly cute senior while I was still in 10th grade. As time progressed, I couldn’t care less about his appearance, his reputation, or anything that related to prudence and I was just hoping this moment would last a lifetime. I don’t know if it’s appropriate to call this love or not but I definitely felt something there. Through our experience, we both struggled with each other, especially my immaturity at that time. But what was amazing was that I became less insecure and started to only care about the opinions from him. To both of our mistakes, our time together was way over the top and we spent literally every second we had together. We stopped hanging out with friends and I lost touch with some of my closest friends. What was bad was that I put him as my priority rather than consider the people and things around me. I don’t know… —- We started to fall downhill and soon, rock bottom came along. I broke up with him over facebook because I misunderstood what he meant and took it the wrong way. Through this, we had our last closure in person. Taking my hands, I refused to allow him to touch me and knew that we had to end, not only because of the misunderstanding, but we’ve broken up at least two times already. I cannot fathom the pain…. Our compatibility was not what I’d originally thought. Not putting a bad impression, he was really a sweet guy and I guess I never really understood that after two months from our last break up. —- I never really got the chance to tell him how wonderful he really was and how I hope we can still be friends, but I guess it’s too little too late. I sometimes see him working at Cha for Tea(lol..) but I’m pretty sure he’s happy where he’s at, considering he’s going to UCI. As for me, I’m happy that I got the chance to experience something special with him while it lasted. As for the inevitable opening of doors, I found someone whom I’d never expect to fall for. Throughout the first 8months of my closure, I developed interest and likings towards several people but never felt we had clicked. After knowing and enduring the phases of a relationship, I didn’t want to face the emotional roller coaster again.. But after 11 months, I finally realized that there was someone whom will be worth any pain i’ll have to feel(whether it comes or not). And, well, I had never thought of love like this, but, damn, love is a scary thing. -jenn
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love is a scary thing
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