We aren’t doing so great right now. We are falling apart. I’m trying to fix it and you just continue to let it crumble. I can’t promise you everything will work out, because honestly the way it looks nothing will work out. I just want you to know, that my feelings for you will never go away. The ring you gave me, I will keep because it honestly means that much to me. I’ll always have a piece of you with me. You gave me my unborn soon to be born child and I couldn’t thank you more for that.
I don’t have anything bad to say about you or bash you for leaving. I just need you to know that I do honestly love you, more than anything. I want to thank you for giving me confidence. Thank you for walking in when the rest of the world walks out. If you need a ‘break’ or space, you got it. If you don’t wanna be with me then I can’t beg you to be with me.
I just wish we didn’t let things get this bad. I wish we could fix them, because honestly I can’t see myself with anyone else but you.
Our baby will be here in two months and hopefully by then everything falls back into place because like you said “I see a family as two people together, forever. In a house together, not the baby being bounced around from mom to dad. I wanna see her grow and not miss anything.” Don’t worry, I won’t ever keep you away from you daughter.
Today, you leave. And I can’t help but ball my eyes out. I’m going to miss you, things aren’t going to be the same. But I’m going to get through it. I’m going to stay strong.
Just remember, you are going to have your bad days, and you are going to have your good. Things will eventually fall back in place and when they do, everything is perfect.
I love you.
3 years and four months, i’ll be waiting.;*
by xojessierae