“I hope you’re sitting, while you read this;”
Our story, has already been told on this page before. And it is one of the best stories that I will have forever in my heart and mind until I am no longer breathing;
The boy that you see above, is probably the best thing that has happened to me. I can’t put into words how much he truly meant to me. Just a simple smile from him could burn away the clouds from my dull day, and fill it with a brilliant light. Waking up, wrapped tightly in his arms, feeling him breathe on my neck, filled my heart with a happiness I had never felt before. He was there when I needed advice, when I needed a shoulder to cry on, and when I just simply needed someone. He opened my car door for me every time I got in, he surprised me with dandelions, and showed me a side of life that I never knew existed. He was everything I wanted, everything I knew I needed, and then some;
I made the stupid mistake of leaving him. Because I was falling in love. And it scared the shit out of me. Here I was, a girl who was used to being treated, at best, like a piece of dirt. A girl who settled for less then she deserved because she believed that’s all she was worth. A girl who, no matter how many times it hurt her, repeated the same pattern with the same jerks. Therefore, when he continuously treated me like gold, I couldn’t handle it and I ran. Ran without a second thought. My wall came up and I kept him on the other side. With a lame excuse such as ‘I’m still in love with my ex.’ Which was baloney;
Knowing that I hurt him the way I did, seeing the damage I caused to him… Kills me. There hasn’t been a day that goes by that I stumble upon something that reminds me of him. I broke his heart, as well as my own, for something as stupid as being a coward. And what’s worse is that I couldn’t even tell him I was being a coward. I came up with the lamest excuse I could muster, and didn’t look back. I will never forgive myself for this.
Take it from me, when you meet someone as wonderful as this gentleman pictured above, and feel the way I did.. Do not run. Because you will regret it. And you will wind up here on tumblr, writing this for closure because he won’t speak to you. Realize that you deserve the happiness that has landed in front of you, and nothing less. Take the risk and leap.
Tyson “Gregory” Perkins, I will never forget you, or what you taught me. I will always love you;