_ 05-11-11 :((
_ been wanting t0 see y0u f0r the past 2 years, and finaLLy, my wish came true Last night .. ♥ —- what y0u did Last night was w0nderfuL .. waving at me fr0m the fieLd and me being embarrassed when aLL y0ur friends L0ok my way and then gave me a Litte wave t0o .. i was reaLLy happy, feeLing that y0u were pr0ud t0 intr0duce me t0 them .. and aLL th0se “i ♥ y0u” f0rmati0ns 0n the fieLd that made my heart jump with j0y .. but then, as what they say, every fairy taLe has t0 end .. i th0ught everything was back t0 the way it used t0 be .. but then, y0u said th0se painfuL and c0nfusing w0rds t0 me again, “GO AHEAD” —- been asking myseLf what this means f0r US f0r the past 5 m0nths since y0u first said these w0rds t0 me .. i d0nt want t0 think 0f the w0rst but i guess, Last night was just y0u’re way 0f saying g0odbye .. and it reaLLy hurts because despite 0f everything thats been happening between us, i stiLL L0ve y0u just the same .. h0w c0uLd y0u Let g0 0f 0ur L0ve just Like that?? h0w c0uLd y0u say y0u’d L0ve me f0rever and then just say g0odbye?? and what ab0ut aLL th0se pr0mises y0u made and making me beLieve that s0meday everything wiLL be aLright?? but it’s n0t, and it wiLL never be .. with0ut y0u .. ^^ i just want t0 say, I LOVE YOU .. and maybe, i’LL L0ve y0u f0rever .. because it wiLL never be easy t0 Let g0 just Like y0u did .. i h0pe we can stiLL be friends but then, i h0pe n0t, because it wiLL be t0o painfuL t0 see y0u aLL the time .. and maybe s0meday, i’LL Learn t0 faLL in L0ve again, but then again, maybe, but it wiLL never be the way i L0ve y0u .. 3 - carLa ♥