What makes a boyfriend, perfect? The society’s presentation of the perfect boyfriend is shown in such overrated ways- bunch of flowers, cheesy pick up lines, and uncountable shoulders to cry on, telling you he loves you in front of his friends, saying you’re beautiful, or just sending cute text messages. But it’s so much more to that isn’t it? Let alone, the ‘perfect’ boyfriend isn’t even going to be like all the time. Life isn’t all rainbows and unicorns. There will be times where it’ll suck and it’ll hurt. There will be times where you would promise yourself not to love him, call him, or talk to him. There will be times where he’ll do the same. Every relationship is messed up, but what makes it perfect is if you still wanna be there when things really suck. The perfect couple isn’t about the perfect pick up lines, or the perfect gifts, or perfect dates for even a couple like that, can fall apart in the smallest of problems.
Last night, when Benjamin came over, he laid on my bed, and I sat against this wall with my feet over him. Together, we looked at the lights, as it faded and came back just like stars. Everything was silent, and we just stared at it together, exchanging glances to each other here and there and- just that two minutes of pure silence made us sure that we were in love with each other and this is for real. It was such an overwhelming feeling; like nothing else mattered and with just one look of his face, everything makes sense. He looks at me in a way that no-one will ever be able to. He looks at me as if I’m his world- his eyes filling with love and passion where he looks at me and tells his heart “She’s the one”, and I felt all that with just a look of his eyes. It’s an amazing feeling, really. You know that, nothing really matters anymore and that the perfect boyfriend isn’t about the flowers, gifts, or anything like that- but in fact, it’s when you can see his heart when he looks at you. The way that Benjamin holds me or cares for me, it’s funny- it’s always the times when I’m barely awake or too sad to notice. When I woke up this morning, I awoke from a terrible dream where I was close to tears, and I squirmed and whined next to him and he just held me- very gently, whispering “What’s wrong baby? Baby? What’s wrong?” as I squirm out of his arms but he just held me, bringing me back towards him. He held me across my body and secured me in his arms knowing I needed it- even though it’s uncomfortable for him. He just knows I needed it. He gives me the blanket when I’m cold, even though it means he’ll get cold. He kisses me randomly just to show he’s still there, and he holds my hand in the middle of no-where to tell me he’s not going to let go. All this, when we’re just laying next to each other- such little things can bring such a strong message.
In the middle of typing this, my lights stopped working, the plug broke and I was devastated. I called him immediately telling him my lights stopped working and he knew I was pretty upset about it so he said “I’ll buy you new ones baby”.
I want you guys to know, finding the perfect boyfriend is so much more than checking off your list of what you want in a guy. When I think about Benjamin and I, I want other people to see how much we’re in love- just so they feel like it can happen to them too. And it can, it really can. I want to be able to share my story, so girls know there are still heaps of nice guys out there, and that one day- you’ll be feeling like the luckiest girl alive.
And believe me, it is the best feeling ever.