This is a conversation with my EX boyfriend. We had a terrible break up..over a year ago. I told him depressed I was tonight and this what I got in return. Eddie..I am sorry for everything. I love you too.
Now princess, Darling, Beautiful, Please stop me if im bothering you. you have to learn that you mean something to me. also you have to understand that i havent lead you on and theo nly reason you get lead on and used is because peple in jersy are A holes in the first place. Hell i think the main reason people act that way is because of that stupid tv show but then again im a crazy person who cant hold his mind in place because of all the shits that happened to me in my life
[10:16:10 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: but you also hve to listen im not insane.. im not crazy. i cant seem to hold down a single relationship with you also if you havent noticed i seem to cant hold one with anybody i date hell im too spineless to have any “Balls” to say no and to say what i want but after having, snapped i can hardly care any shits about anybody but the person i love.
[10:16:39 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: as you possibly can tell having one of the two people in the entire world almost taken away from me possibly tonight could make either one of two things happen to me
[10:16:55 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: either 1 i go to jersy and make sure i rained hell before ending myself in some odd way possible or 2
[10:17:23 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: i sit here talk to you and tell how you how much you mean to me in the life, world universe or what eve and absolutly have no possible feelings what so ever
[10:17:48 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: you have to understand that even tho we dated like a year ago i wanted to restart everything because eventually i wanted to go out with you and acutally see if this would work even tho you dont
[10:18:08 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: the bottom line is that i know how difficult everything is now for you and by god i understand whaty our going though
[10:18:16 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: obiously enough ive found out i have a few umm
[10:18:20 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: medical issues
[10:18:43 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: ADD, OCD, Pesmitcally, and i ocasionally think thoughts that would possibly blow a persons mind
[10:19:33 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: now the reason im sharing this huge rant with you is bcause i promise you that no matter what anybody says you have to understand to this guy, Man, gentlemen, person human being. That you are somebody that im wiling t break all my bones and see to it that my existance doesnt matter to see you happy
[10:19:44 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: trust me when i have to say this is that i love you
[10:19:55 PM] Liz: I am like crying
[10:20:16 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: i have always loved you althoug idk if its possible to love over a computer but it also is possible for me to say that i love you enough to want to be with you every possible night and day just to make sure that you are happy enough to live your life
[10:20:41 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: Now one thing that really attracted me toward you and why i liked you in the first forsaken reason was the fact that you are the only person that cared about me and my personallity
[10:20:57 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: you wanted to be with you you chose to be with me when everybody else decided to say fuck you,
[10:21:08 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: now if that was or is possibly any reason to love you that would be my reason alone
[10:21:09 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: but no
[10:21:12 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: you went above and beyong
[10:21:14 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: *beyond
[10:21:24 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: you called me outside of a little game that we know called Mabinogi
[10:21:27 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: you acutally texted me
[10:21:31 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: helped me with problems in general
[10:21:50 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: these are acutal feeligns Elizabeth and by god these feelings are real
[10:22:06 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: you need to knwo that if i say i love you its because you showed me what it was like to be in love
[10:22:24 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: now if i lose you i know for a fact that any possible reason for me living would utterly kill me like ive stated before
[10:22:44 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: i know your crying and im sorry if your reading this and crying but you need to know whats been on my mind heart and any possible feeligns and beings for you
[10:22:53 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: i know guys have used you made fun of you or what eve
[10:23:00 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: im here to tell you that all guys are like that except me
[10:23:12 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: now that stupdi thing you did with that one guy will not be mentioned but do know
[10:23:19 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: that if i remotely didnt care i would of gone off on you
[10:23:38 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: you have to understan that i love you enough to make sure to let you go and make it seem that your happy
[10:24:02 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: if you end up back with me to me in any posible way you need to know that its because either we were ment to be or you just have a great connection with me
[10:24:22 PM] Xeldran Azikusa: now. after all this there is still a bunch mroe i have to say but please say smething so i know your still there and im not typing y heart out for nothing