I’ve never had a crush on someone before where it’s lasted a whole school year.
everytime we fucking interact in any sort of way it brings me back to when I was six years old,
I had cornered my friend max and kissed him on the hand against his will.
different boy, same feeling.
like I felt like I had to make you mine for so long.
I’m stuck with you, kid.
I shouldn’t be, but I am.
I give up, I’m posting this. I need to talk it out, even with myself, even with followers.
whoever, honestly.
I feel so stupid, to crush on a friend for so long. seriously.
everytime I see you smiling with another girl, I actually have to break something.
you told me you liked some girl and when you weren’t looking I chucked my phone at the concrete.
I never had that authentic, fuzzy feeling with anyone else.
I hate it. cuz you feel it for everyone but me.
but whatever, you’ll be mine. I got this.