The lightning flashed and lit up his face, flashing through his eyes like the sorrow and regret he was offering me. The thunder boomed and echoed through my head, pulling all of my anger and sadness with it. He took a step towards me, splashing a little in the puddle he stepped in. He put his hands on my waist, and tried to pull me closer to him, but I didn’t move an inch. I stood there, staring off into space, the rain falling like a waterfall from the sky over the two of us. He took another step towards me and was now just a few inches away. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forehead. I looked down immediately and took a step back, trying to break away from his grasp. I turned away and just stood, like I was frozen there. He came up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist again. I put my hands over his for a moment, and leaned my head into his chest. Then I moved his hands away and turned around, taking another step backwards. He said breathlessly “What can I do? I’m sorry, you know I am. I didn’t mean to hurt you, can’t we just forget about this?” I managed to choke out “Forget?” He just looked back at me, with this empty look in his eyes. Tears filled my eyes and words just started pouring out of me, along with my tears. “Yes, I know you’re sorry, and you didn’t mean to hurt me. But you did. You made and mistake, and you can’t take that back. Not meaning to hurt me doesn’t take away the pain; it doesn’t make any of this sting any less. It doesn’t take the lump out of my throat every time I go to talk, it doesn’t take away the images that flash through my mind every time I look at you, it doesn’t take the sound of her voice out of my ears and thoughts when I try to go to sleep at night. I’m sorry too. I just can’t look at you the same way right now. Everything feels empty. I just don’t know how I can look at you the same way; have the same trust in you now. This just changes everything.” I was sobbing so hard I had to stop talking, and buried my face in my hands. He wrapped his arms around me, and for the first time since he confessed the week before, I let him. I hid my face in his chest and wrapped my arms around him. He kissed my forehead, and kept muttering “I am so sorry, I love you so much. I was so stupid I don’t know what I was thinking.” He wrapped his arms around me even tighter as I started to cry so hard that I almost had tears flowing from my eyes as fast as the rain was pouring out of the sky. “I think I understand if you can’t forgive me, but I really hope you can find it somehow possible to try. I don’t want to lose you. I will do everything I can to earn back your trust, to make this up to you, I can’t take anything back but I can try my damndest and hardest to try to make it up to you for the rest of my life, the rest of our lives.” Then I felt a drop on cheek, a warm drop if water. It wasn’t my tears, and it was too warm to be the rain. I peered up and saw that he too was now crying. I had never seen him cry, or even come close to crying. My crying slowed, and I put my face back into his chest and hugged him tight. Then I pulled back a little and just looked at him. He looked back and we stood there in silence for a moment. He then whispered “What?” I took a step forward and kissed him lightly. Then I sighed, and uttered “I guess I can try…” and started to trail off, but he continued to just look at me. So I continued “I can try to forgive you. It’s not going to be easy, and it’s going to take some time, but I think I can try. I want to try, I am in love with you and as painful as this is going to be, I think saying goodbye to you would be more painful.” A smile spread across his face as he responded “Really? Oh my, I will do everything, and I will never ever hurt you again I promise.” I cut him off, “I hope you stay true to that promise, because there are no third chances. I know myself well enough to know that if you ever do anything like this again, I absolutely won’t even be able to consider forgiving you. Please, just don’t hurt me like this ever again.” He replied immediately “I won’t. I’m not going to mess this up again, I’m lucky that you’re giving me a second chance. I was stupid once, but I’m not absolutely mindless.” Then he rushed to me and hugged me tightly. I hugged him back, putting my head to his chest, hearing his loud heartbeat. Then, he kissed me passionately, I kissed him back and ran my hands through his soaking wet hair, and wrapped my legs around his waist, he held me up and led me over to a bench nearby. The lightning flashed again, and the thunder boomed so loudly it made us jump. I pulled back and murmured “We should get inside somewhere; the storm is getting really bad. And we should get out of these sopping wet clothes.” He kissed me once more on my lips, then on my forehead. He then responded “Yeah, that’s a good idea. I stood up, and he grabbed my hand. I stopped and he recited my favorite love quote, and then went on “I love you, and I am going to spend the next number of years to prove that to you, no matter how long it takes. I mean that. I will prove to you that you’re not making a mistake. I will prove to you that maybe I’m worth it, or try to, or let you decide.” I stared in to his eyes and replied “I already know you’re worth it, that’s the only way I could even think about forgiving you. And thank you, I really hope I’m not making a mistake. I love you, and I know you didn’t mean it. Just it’s going to take some time to heal.” Then he stood up, and put his arm around me. We walked home and when we got to his house he asked me if I wanted to come in. I questioned “But I’m soaking wet.” He shrugged, and retorted “So? I have a shirt and either pants or shorts you can put on. Then we can watch a movie or something and just talk. Come on, it’ll be fun.” I smiled at him and allowed “Okay, I guess.” I then walked in, and changed into clothes he gave me and we curled up together on the couch under a blanket and watched “The Eye.” At the end, he looked at me and asked “So, what do you think far? Make a mistake?” I answered “Nope, not yet at least. I love you.” He asserted “I love you too.” Then I kissed him, and put lied down next to him on the couch with my head on his chest, and we fell asleep together.
by becslied