My name is Natasha :) I will be twenty next month :) This picture was taken when i was 16. Our family went to Treasure Island in Florida during summer vacation. This is the summer my life changed.
This is Ben. My first official boyfriend. We met that summer. The summer of 2007. We became good friends. When school started we started talking more and more. Then, we started dating. We dated for two years. During those years, my mom left to get her visa renewed in Guyana, his parents had split up, his grandma pasted away, and he moved back to England. We had the long distance relationship but it wasn’t working for me. I was starting college and I couldn’t do it anymore. I started ignoring his calls and his messages. So, on our two year anniversary I broke up with him. I know it was mean but he’s really happy now. He’s engaged with this gorgeous chick and they look very happy together.
Then, came Parker. I fell for him hard. I was over Ben, the good boy, and ready for the bad one. I trusted Parker so much. We dated for about four months but it wasn’t nonstop. About everyone one to two weeks he would break up with me. We always had a connection and I kept on going back to him. Then, I found out he cheated on me. I didn’t even cry. I never cried even when he broke up with me. The last time we were in a relationship again was in February. He asked me out on a Friday and then that Sunday he broke up with me. I was over him. I was over his bull-shit. I needed someone that needed me.
When I started going to college I met my soul-mate, Joel :) Only thing, I didn’t know it was him at the time. He went to my middle school and my high school and I had no idea! When i met him i was with Ben. We became besties after the first two weeks of meeting. We just kind of clicked. He had a great sense of humor and he was cute. We could talk about everything and anything. He was there while i was dating Parker and when Parker broke up with me many times. He’s the one that told me that I was going to “meet an awesome guy as awesome as me and i’m going to be super happy with him.” Joel dropped out of college before Thanksgiving break in 2009. We would talk on Facebook and Myspace about our lifes and such. Then, in January we went to Denny’s for Free Grand-Slams :) Since then we’ve been hanging out. One night we were hanging and drinking with a couple of our friends. Joel had a girl he was talking to at the time. They weren’t boyfriend and girlfriend because he made it clear he didn’t want that but they were “together” though. She left with her friend to go home and so it was Joel, David(our gay friend <3 ), and I. Joel was buzzed and I was just on my fourth beer. It was really cold that night so we were sitting closely on Davids’ bed trying to keep warm. Joel then said i smelled good and kissed me :) We made out but I stopped because he was talking to Jessica, the girl. The next day he broke whatever he had with her off. He wanted to be mine but i said no. I didn’t want to lose our friendship over lust. That Monday, he came over to hang out with me and a couple of our friends. When he left he gave me such an amazing hug <3 I then went on Facebook to talk to him. He told me that he already missed me. I was going to tell him that I wanted to give us a try but he logged off. So, I wrote him a message. I wanted to see how we could be, if we would work out. March 2, 2010. That’s our day :) Since that day we have a wonderful son and our love is so much stronger. He’s friends with a lot of his ex’s and i’m kind of scared that he might cheat on me mostly because Parker did but i’m starting to trust him more and i’ve realized that I can trust him. We do have our fights every so often. I’m not perfect and he’s not either but we’re perfect for each other :)
I love this man so much. I swear he’s my soul-mate.