i wish i could explain just how much i love you Patrick David Hesketh.
your love flows through my veins and keeps me going every single day. not a day passes where i wake up and dont think of you, and you better believe youre always the last thought on my mind when i go to bed. Everything i have been able to share with you has collected in my mind as memories i will never ever forget. remember when we went to Sacramento together? i do. we had so much fun running around downtown together. taking pictures of everything. remember when we went to san fran together? i do too. we went through the whole city having the time of our lives. remember the first time you told me you loved me? i couldnt even look at you because i was so damn nervous. and yet, i looked up and told you that i loved you too. remember when you told me you were moving up north, and remember how you cried in my arms because you were scared. i was happy for you, i was really happy for you because i loved you enough to know it was best for you. remember the last night we spent together in socal? we played cards with your brother in law and drank beers? i didnt cry, but i went home and cried for hours. remember when we broke up in november? i didnt leave my room for months… i didnt do anything. i missed you too much. remember when i got to see you again? my heart was flying. we still are broken up, we still dont talk every day, but i still will always love you no matter what happens. i promise you this. and you are telling me you feel like im playing games, like i dont care, like i dont miss you, and i hope you truly whole heartedly know that i am madly insanely in love with you and i have been since the minute i met you two years ago.
i will always always always be yours. no matter what. no one else is good enough for me. its you, patrick. its always been you.