Being in love is awkward. You know what I mean. Sometimes it makes us happy, sad, angry, or even ashamed.
This is my love story. So, here we go.
I met this guy when Im a first grade student on high school. His name is Nuril, he’s a basketball player. His backnumber is 14. Damn he was so arogant at that moment. He’s a careless kinda guy actually (until now). I hate his behaviour. It made me sick. So I told my friends, Laura and Sisil that this guy was really really really an a**hole. But psssh, who knew that I would fall in love to him? I mean come on, he was an arrogant, careless, cold, Mr. I-Dont-Care-Of-Everything-As-Long-As-I’m-Happy. And urgh, he was just a mad temper!
Yes, he made me fall in love with him. Even so badly. Why? Because he was suddenly being a nice person to me. He talked to me like a gentle man even he opened a door for me. Dude, believe me I was like “WTF”. He offered me a jacket, he helped me with my wall magazine problems, and the way he played played guitar was AHHMAZING. He played one song for me, it was Friday if Im not mistaken. The song was “You’re Beautiful by James Blunt”. He played it reaaaaaaal slow which was make me hard to catch a breath. He looked at me in the eyes at the end of the song. Since that day, we started to make friends. And I told my self that he wasn’t like what I think. He was even better or the best.
Day by day, we’re getting closer and closer. He join the same extracurricular as me. Until one day his friend, Saeful, told me that he had a crush on me. OHMYFUCKINGGOSH. I have never felt anything better than this before. I was so excited about the news. I was jumping around my class with a blush on my cheek. I was pretending that I didnt know about that. So we were living a usual day as a friends. I played as his wife at my wall magazine family (its another long story) so I had a chance to know him better then ever.
In short, we were sending a text to each other everyday, everynight. Unwittingly, we even added “Iloveyou,sweetdream papih/mamih” in every text if we were goin to bed. But I couldnt go on like this forever, I mean, DUH! I need a certainty of our relationship. Rumor has it we were dating, but we were’nt had any comitment that day. So I ventured to ask him like “What are we? Who am I for you.” (I know I know I know. Im kinda stupid to asked first). And he answered “I dont know, but I can feel it. Something that make me smile everytime I see you. I just dont know what it is.” —he said. Darn I still remember his sms. :-bd
“Love?” I replied via sms.”Could be. I need to talk to you tommorow. Please.” THAT SMS WAS JUST FREAKING ME OUT. I couldnt sleep all night long. I couldnt wait that day to come. Oh friday Im in love. :)
Tommorow afternoon, after a wall magazine published. Next to the teachers room, in front of X.5. 13 Senior High School.
N : “Ummh, where do I have to start?”
S : “Umm lets start from what are we gonna talk about.”
N : “Okay, ummh. (he sounded really nervous) here’s the thing. Do you know why my backnumber is 14?”
S : “Because you know that I love Troy Bolton.”
N : “Yes, and do you know why I sang you the song? I drove you home? And join the same extracurricular as you?”
S : “Pretty much because of me.” (I dont know what came to me, but at this moment. I prefer to jump off the cliff instead of heard him continue the line.”
N : “Exactly, so, you already knew all this time. Why dont you tell me?”
S : “Cause Im a girl, you’re a boy. Girl, boy, girl, boy.” :D
N : “Okay okay, would you just be my girlfriend?” (what an arrogant, I was waiting for ‘I love you” but he didnt say the word, so watch.)
S : “Why would I ?!!?!” (I was pretending that I dont love him at all)
N : “Why would you??!! I thought you love me. I asked you that question because I love you. I thought you had the same feeling as me.” (GOTCHA!)
S : “Well, the asnwer is no.”
N : “No? Why?”
S : “NO WAY THAT I COULD REFUSE THAT.” (I let my deathly drop dead gorgeous smile out)
N : “Pranker!” He pinched my cheek. And hug me. That was just sweet. :”>
Thats it, it ended with a hug. It was a beautiful start. And we have been together for 1 year, 6 months, 2 weeks, and 2 days (daily count). There was ups and downs, even we broke up couple times. But thank God, and thanks LOVE, we’re together again untill now. I hope its forever. I know that nothing last forever. But I will try to make it last forever.I hope you could be the father of my kids. The Grandpa of my grandchildren.I love you Ahmad Nuril Winasishadi. :)
Saturday, January, 24th, 2009 was the beginning of everything.
I Love You ♥
p.s. N is him, S is me. :)